so ive been doing good with eating, like one small meal a day ( Read more... )

its tuesday, i didnt go to school, i slept for 12 hours, which isnt that odd for me. it was a nice day, i read twilight outside, i like reading in the sun. but i didnt get out early enough, the clouds rolled in too soon. i wrote katelynn a beautiful poem, and i sent it to her. i hope she likes it, and me. if she really does, i hope i can show her ( Read more... )

i dont wanna be awake right now, id love to be sleeping comfortably, id love to fall asleep at 9 30 every night and wake up easily, refreshed in the morning, take a shower, go to school, work hard and get good grades. but here i am, burnt out at one am, feeling only slightly more comfortable and able to sleep at 1 am after vomiting, of course thats ( Read more... )

gained 5 disgusting pounds thanks to munchies
ew i hate myself
200 calorie limit till im skinny
this is gonna hurt so bad.
i suck. i need to be strong.

Your class, your caste, your country, sect, your name or your tribe
There's people always dying trying to keep them alive
There are bodies decomposing in containers tonight
In an abandoned building ( Read more... )

the girl i asked to the prom said yes, oh my god im soo happy i could cry
shes sooo cute
i want her to be my girl. oh my god things are really turning around
fuck john, i have katelynn now. i have like major butterflies
i gotta stop getting high, i like kinda got lost yesterday like i was where i was suposed to be but i like didnt know where i was. it ( Read more... )

oh man do i have shit to update about ( Read more... )

its about 1 am, im in cohasset in this little room ive claimed, i couldnt sleep, lots of stuff on my mind i guess ( Read more... )

trying to eat sucks. majorly, extremely. i feel beyond fat, i hate my body, i want to lose weight, ive been eating, for john, but tonight i threw up and i feel soo good now that im empty and i only wish i could be tiny and skinny and empty always, i wish it were easier and didnt hurt so unbearably much. im going to the day program on monday. wish ( Read more... )

"i thought what id do is pretend i was one of those deaf mutes ( Read more... )

Held down by my own lies

I’ve made myself this bed

And laid me down to die

I can’t look you in the face

I feel like I’m gonna cry

I can’t pour out the honest truth

I’m afraid of what you’ll find

Can you find it in your self

To try to understand

I love you like no body else

I’ve been calling you my man

But there are things I’m scared to ( Read more... )