FUCK! It hurts too much… I can’t fell this way again; I can’t go down this road again. I’m scared of my heart disintegrate in my chest. It is the sharpest pain one could imagine, once you fell it you just want to find a way to make it go away… at whatever price. Fuck! I don’t want to fall down again, but it’s really hard.  

The moon illuminations the darkness of night as the clouds begin to clear. The stars begin to shine brighter… but how long will it last. Waiting for the next storm to bring the rain… drop by drop the night cries, and when the thunder starts the heart twist in pain. Only time will tell if the sky will stay clear.

I’ve been having a good couple of days… I give it until Friday to get shity.  Something always happens, that train is never late.

 It gets harder to think straight everyday. With a knife in the heart… This broken heart will never mend, so never shall I breathe again.

When you wish upon a star, your dreams will come true… I wish I could believe that. Thing just aren’t the same without him.

The never-ending rollercoaster and the shit that is my life continue. I loose hope slowly and painfully that my life will ever be the same again. I wish and pray but my life remains the same. I’m sick of this fake smile, I’m sick if the river of tiers that doesn’t stop, I’m sick of being me. I don’t want to feel this pain anymore, I really do wish ( Read more... )

How do you stop this feeling of worthlessness? This feeling that everything you do is wrong, that nothing in your life has purpose. This feeling has become all too familiar to me. I wish I could star a new life become a new person with no past, just a long future. Unfortunately I live in the real world were you live the hand you were dealt. Yes, ( Read more... )

My life will always the way it is now. I don’t think another will ever love me because I will never love me, because my heart will never love again. It is sad up but true. I have gotten one too many punches in the heart to ever want to use it again. I’ll just live contemplating the love I lost and will always be looking for. I’ve say it once, I’ll ( Read more... )

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, No escape from reality. Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see, any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me. Mama, Didn't mean to make you cry, If I'm not back again this time tomorrow, carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters. Too late, my time has come, Sends ( Read more... )

The struggle continues, what will become of me… what will happen. I’m so tired…. So worn-out. I just want the easy way out… I want to numb the pain… but I don’t want to see myself stoop to that level…