What a crazy weekend. it was really dramatic and in a lot of places i felt like i wasn't a good enough friend. i do love all my stl friends, i wish i got to spend more time there. however, it does feel good to get back to my own place and have my car fixed and all that. i've discovered that there is some version of law and order on tv all the time ( Read more... )

when i left your house i hoped you'd follow. but it was only ghosts.

my apartment is actually coming together and i really like it. parley, muzzy and i are going thrifting in jeff city today. sweet new furniture and yen ching. oh and i only have classes on tuesday and thursday so that's amazing. also, watch for a visit to stl this weekend. i guess that's all. pointless really except for me being in a strangely good

i am grumpy. i have no reason to be grumpy, but sometimes these things can't be helped. so this semester i only have class on tuesday and thursday, which is amazing. i love being back in real school and being lectured at. weird i know. and i definitely got a $2100 refund check from school yesterday. that helps because i definitely had $.17 in the ( Read more... )

i moved back to como today, for the most part. no internet in my apartment and no tv either. just a lot of me. a lot of alone time. it's scary.

everything reminds me of london. i can't help it. however, i am glad to be home. i went to my dad's today, issues there of course. girls night last night was great although i couldn't help but be reminded of this summer. it all seemed really perfect and great. but seriously, how stupid were we for thinking that. i'm worried about some of my friends ( Read more... )

new years wasn't the triumphant return i was hoping for. however, it was fun. perhaps too fun. hanging out with tony has been fun. i'm headed to columbia tomorrow to sign my lease and fill out my grad plan. the organization is going to be great. a new apartment and classes and maybe a real life to follow. i've still got plenty of hanging out to do ( Read more... )

hearts are not only beating, they're counting down.

so today i was taking a shower and thought about the tattoo i got before i left. it's white and at this point almost faded away. i was thinking about laying in his bed and complaining about how the new tattoo hurt and how he'd tell me to quit thinking about it. well, that's gone and so is the tattoo. however it will be redone and i'll be home soon

my late night sleeping patterns are totally not compatible with that of the rest of my family. i'm sitting in the dark with headphones on contemplating life. i got really homesick today. it was weird, i realized i hadn't gotten the box of christmas cookies i usually get from friends of the family, and it was all downhill from there. so i watched ( Read more... )