Hey girlies, howd everyone do today. .and by today i mean the 25th (yes i realize its the 26th now but my day is yet over). . i didn't do too bad. Actually I'm quite proud of myself. I had under 500 calories and I went jogging (at 12:00 at night. .i just got back) for the first time in forever. But of course. . the first thing i do when i get ( Read more... )

I feel like a failure. I feel like im letting you guys down. I had an emotional break down today. My therapist says I have male trust issues and with him being a male we should switch me to a female Dr. so we can get my eating disorder taken care of before we adress the trust issue. BUT the ironic part of this whole situation (which was probably ( Read more... )

Its been a long while, 13 days to be exact, since I last updated my journal. A lot has happened. Nothing really significant, but a lot nonetheless. I don't even know where to begin. So I guess first on my mind, ( Eric )

I feel good. . .I've had a piece of gum and 5 grapes today. . .I need to keep this going as long as I can. . .I'm going to follow some advice I was given and just take this with baby steps. . . I wont eat for the rest of the hour at least. . .I am going to busy myself with cleaning my room. . my heavens it is a big mess. . that will burn some ( Read more... )

I feel lost. . .I hate the feeling of being full. . .but is this normal. . I mean really? I purged 3 seperate times yesterday. . i hate that. . it makes me feel ashamed. . i just read about missing your period and how it is related to eating disorders. . it scares me because i want kids. . its the one thing i am the most sure about in my life. . i ( Read more... )

Hehehe...so I'm having not such a bad day...I got invited to a frat party by this boy I have had a interest in since last semester...knowing my luck tho he just was inviting random girls from his friends list...geez i hope not...hes awful cute and not too bad in the books area...any way... i have to dress up like a devil or angel...hehehe...maybe ( Read more... )

~Hey, don’t let it go to waste ( Read more... )

Its lunch time now. . .Im heating up some green beans which only has 20 calories per half cup. . .im debating wether i should eat a full cup of those and like applesauce or something else. . .the applesauce and green beans would only be 70 calories and since I had more calories in my breakfast than originally planned i should cut back somewhere ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here in my dorm room after just eating and I feel like shit. . .I want to know why I feel like this and LOOK like this when no one else I know does. . .thats why I created a journal here. . I want to join a community of some sort so I can get support from others out there that go through the same feelings as me. . I don't want to feel ( Read more... )