So I took a big risk leaving Hemlok, because playing music live had become such a big part of my life, and I ended up missing it a lot. But, after 7 months of being out, I am getting back into the swing of things, and this time, doing things I really want to do ( Read more... )

I had another really vivid dream. I actually had to think when I woke up to make sure it wasn't true. I was visiting someone in a part of Fall River near where I used to live. We went to the dunkin donuts down the street, and I was getting the strangest feeling of familiarity. I had been there before... Then it started coming back. There was a boy ( Read more... )

I had another dream. I was living at the old house in tiverton. I was the same age, but the mentality was that it was late middle school early high school.. No worries in the world. It was winter. I was dating Freddy from Skins. We were in the basement not doing anything in particular. He was wearing one of those white puffy vinal jackets. We weren ( Read more... )

So, I have been writing this stuff at work, to give my mind a break from the constant brain wracking. So some of these entried might stream together, I don't know if LJ will let me post entries on a past date. I will have to check ( Read more... )

And the history of 4 Aster street begins. Well, I am sure it began a long time ago, but I mean it's history with me. Keith has decided to start looking for a new place, which is understandable. I enjoyed the company, and the extra cash, but I wasn't willing to let him have free reign of my house to have people over all the time, and have skanks ( Read more... )

If anyone still reads this, post some comments on this entry. The last one someone left was regarding Ian when I was dating him, and I don't like seeing his name or thinking about him, but it pops up on the home screen ( Read more... )

So I moved again. It was a spur of the moment decision, and probably the fastest move ever... I was browsing craigslist Tuesday, found an amazing place, met the landlord Wednesday, and moved in Saturday. So I now have a huge place in w. Warwick. It's nice. quiet, everything is brand new, 10 minutes from work. I am saving so much money on gas and ( Read more... )

Life is going ok. Keith being around really has helped my peace of mind. it's amazing how much lack of human interaction will make you crazy. But I have been doing better, and not stressing out as much. I've also invested in incense and wine, which create a very relaxing environment at home. I feel less lonely, and more confident which is good. It ( Read more... )

It's therapeutic to a degree. Plus i spend a lot of time sitting at the computer doing nothing at night, so I have no excuse not to. Plus sometimes when I go back and read, i learn things about myself ( Read more... )

I am not sure if I am losing touch with reality, or becoming more in touch with it. Things the past few months have been bad. I am aware they are, but I am unable to fix it. Something is wrong with me. I'm am pretty sure it is stemming from me being lonely. But I don't know how to deal with it anymore. Ri agrees with my theory, which gives it more ( Read more... )