We sit apart in a crowded room. The air is hot and I can feel my heart pounding beneath my skeleton.Despite the multitude of bodies amoung us, my mind sets us alone. So far away, he feels so close. A cross breeze blows against me in his direction. For one fleeting momentI would give everything to be weightless, lifted by the wind into his arms once ( Read more... )

Throughout my life, I have seen many people come and go. Each leaving their own mark. Each changing me, shaping me, a little each day. Sometimes I wonder where my life would be today without many of them. It dosen't matter. There's no where else I would rather be.

I sit in a sun filled room. A breeze carries the smell of hyacinth and fresh cut grass throught the windows. The clouds sit low on the horizon; baby blue in the back ground. The fast approaching season change calls me to question his intentions. Once again my thoughts come up short. I am beginnings to accept that I may never understand him. If I ( Read more... )

On a Moonlite Night

Low Tide. A wall of rocks secluding eutopia from civilization. A clear sky reveals stars still virgins to human eyes. There is nothing but moonlight reflecting off the sound, leaving a glimmer in his eyes. I sit at a distance, watching his majestic movements. My eyes follow his arm as he releases the stone, sending it dancing ( Read more... )

Well here I go again. Different boy, same situation. I'm so sick of this. I just hope i don't lose the one who means the world to me.

Things are GOOD!

Dear Johnny,

This is my hypothetical note to you. Here is everything I would say to you if only I could. I can't figure you out. Do you want this or not? What do I mean? Are you aware that I've felt this way for a while but assumed I had no chance? Do you ever know the feeling I'm referring to? I have a strong feeling you don't feel the way I want ( Read more... )

What the hell am I doing. Here I go again with the poor choices and rash decisions.
Ugh. I can never be happy. I love chris with all my heart.  Ineed to be with him. I'm worried that he's the only guy for me.

What if he isn't. Ugh then there's pat. why did I do that. Was it another desperate move. Do I actually like him. Is it bad that I don't know. ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why you feel the way you do.
I may never be able to see the light you say shines around me.
But on this day I will swear an oath 
To always see in you, that same beam of light.
I'll let it guide my steps through this dark forest.

This is so strange. A few days almost in a row now i've been just falling asleep in the afternoon/ early night ish and thats not like me at all. My parents think i'm on drugs which is totally absurd but somethign is different and it's kind of scaring me. I'm not sure if it's just that I'm reading and the combo of the monochromatic pages and calming ( Read more... )