When did everything start to splice together... I find myself here again. And again. What has this path lead me to? I try to understand your teachings, and to handle any challenge presented to me. Though this is a task I'm unsure of how to handle at this point. There are too many parallels, and it has made it damned near impossible to ignore. I ( Read more... )

Never leave a paper trail ( Read more... )

Its getting dark. Walls are closing in around me, and its getting harder to breathe.
Where is my knight?

Over and over do these things seem to continue. I recklessly put myself in an endless spiral of negativity, and I can't find a way out of it. I want to be out of it, to be done with everything that happens in my day to day life. I want to cry, to ball up in a corner and just cry. If I could drain this depression from me, then I would... at least ( Read more... )

Well I started the new job at Arby's. Its the same bull shit as it was when I was at Wendy's only easier because the company is so lax. Needless to say though, it will pay the bills. Thank goodness. So after long hours at work and cleaning up the house and maintaining it except for the laundry, I asked for help. I asked Heather to clean the ( Read more... )

Why is it whenever I want to go somewhere, I am to fucking poor to do it.
FUCK THIS SHIT!?!

Everything is so god damn over-priced that even jewish assholes can't even loosen their puckered ass cheeks long enough to even think about spending money.

/RAGE FACE/

Dull. Life is dull. It is pointless, and mundane ( Read more... )

Well now I can't fall asleep. I pretty much wasted my day away lying in bed because I just didn't have the drive to do anything else. I feel ignored on the weekends, since Logan just watches some show I'm not interested in or he is off playing a game. Its like I have to do flips for him to notice me. Though he did make cinnamon buns for me this ( Read more... )

Okay, what the fuck. Had another restless night sleeping. Finally gave up and decided to stay awake. Fucking 5:55 AM... I guess waking early is a good thing, healthy, normal even, but still I don't know anyone that is awake right now. I'm watching Logan sleep and he seems so content. Not fair... bastard! I wish I could sleep right now. Argh ( Read more... )

Regardless of how many times I say that I will stop writing, and acting like a selfish emo kind by jotting down in this journal... I always find myself coming back. My outlet, Yume, hasn't been on for me to really talk to... so... Writing, I have discovered is another outlet, again, and a much needed time passer for me. Just like in high school I ( Read more... )