It's been ever so, ever so grey...

[semidtachd]

Earlier today, I was struck by the thought that in less than four months' time I will be twenty-four years old. Twenty-Four. That sounds so much older than I want it to. I don't have a real job. I don't have a real life. I would never have guessed, years ago, that I'd not be near to either "real" thing, let alone still a pristine and dandy virgin,

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[scarsnsouvenirs]

24 seems young to me. I don't know why. I get surprised when I step back and realize how young I am. (Yeah, I know I'm younger than 24, but come on. I'm 22.) I think that it's skewed that so many people are in such a hurry to have "real" this, "real" that and be super high-achieving in their 20s. (Shut up. I'm not guilty of any of that.) And most people who I stalk come across on Facebook, My Space, etc., are 20-something and clueless, but not ina bad way. In an understandable way. It's just that the minority makes itself so vocal in this case. One of my favorite professors told me that "your 20s should be your most self-indulgent decade," and I agree. You've got the rest of yourself to get things together. That doesn't mean that the Now is always enjoyable, but it's not the worst thing, either. I know it's all about perception, so I'm not trying to talk you into it, but that's how I see it. Also, I bet there are women who would appreciate your level of experience and where you're at, because they're there, too. It's just more

[semidtachd]

I don't know. 24 isn't all that young. And I wish I could be self-indulgent. I am, to the degree that I do the things I like doing somewhat to excess and at the expense of others. Long hours of World of Warcraft, endless Netflix movies, and frequent $3.60 cups of premium tea will attest to that. But I can't afford real self-indulgence. I can't even get sick since I can't afford insurance, so how can I indulge?

It's not more difficult to find women interested in a man like me. It's impossible. I make it so by being demandingly different. Plus, I'm not exactly what one calls "handsome" in the traditional way. Most often, women I find attractive don't even recognize me as human. I know that the ones prepared to judge me by my unfashionable clothes and untrimmed beard aren't the ones I want anyway, but a little recognition would be nice, ya know?

[rula]

i know i've said this before, but
i would really like to get to know you.

[semidtachd]

Too bad you're a New York lady and I'm a Boston boy with no money. :(

[weyakin]

You're not the only 20 something going "nowhere". I think a lot of us are at that point right now, and honestly I think it comes with the territory of being at this point in our lives. We'll figure it out some day, even if it's not right away. 5 years from now, you could be looking back at yourself in your current position and think, wow...I really did make progress, I just couldn't see it at the time, because it felt like it was moving so slow. It's kind of like hair in that way..you don't notice its grown length until you compare it to your former hair. Sometimes, you remind of David so much, it's kind of funny... I have a way of getting along with stubborn pessimists ;-) Maybe we're the yin and yang for each other in a way where it just works.