i'm tired... i've had a fucken rough week...everything i say or do has been wrong, i feel wrong... like a square peg in a circular hole. i kinda feel like killing myself.. there's a fucken void somewhere inside of me and its just black and empty. this all may sound very dramatic but what can i say thats just the way it is. i wake up exausted and i ( Read more... )

i'm not sure what still motivates me to update this thing... but i will anyways ( Read more... )

provoke me motherfucker.

i hate morning time... i sit around hating everyone in the morning ( Read more... )

need to kill time. killing timekilling time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing time killing ( Read more... )

school... got work to do... but instead i wanna throw this computer at someones head and start a fight .. i have no life i go to school then to work then maybe to bed. it's kinda hard i almost feel like a grown up .. sundays the only day i got to myself and i lay around and play video games all day.. i got some serios gas.. the computer labs about ( Read more... )

hmmm.. some time has past.. i think.

i moved out broke up with my whatever.. got a job.. rent a room . spent my paycheck on cloths.. and hopefully tomorrow i get my license.. .. umm got an excellent fuck buddy..

.. summertime, i'm too cool to use the computer.. word

other than that i hate long beach

i dunno the longer i stay here the more miserable i become.. it's as tho i need things here to make me happy, material things or i always need to be doing something otherwise i feel like a piece of garbage.. it's probably me, something i'm doing inside my head that only hindsight will solve..
i wish my boobs would shrink

happy day. i did well on my driving lesson.. i'm learning pretty quick.. i underestimated myself. i spoke to my friend for 3 hours last night and i saw shrek 2. all that shit made my feel less alone for some reason.. i did get into a sort of fight with my dad but i'm not really upset about it anymore. he got to me and i reacted.. it was sort of ( Read more... )

today i felt so alone no matter what i did ..even when i was around people i felt alone.. i don't like it. it's sad. hopefully it'll be gone when i wake up tomorrow.

i miss my friends.