So much has happened even in these last few days. I can't really put it down now, it seems too abstract. Still..the countdown is undoubtedly amazing. I now have actual dates so no more of this estimating bullshit...well maybe just a little ( Read more... )

11 months 2 weeks (approx): since I've seen Todd

15 days of classes left
4 weeks (approx): until Brad's home
5 weeks 1 day (approx): until Todd's back
5 weeks 2 days: until I graduate
3 months 3 weeks: left in Ithaca

10 months 3 weeks 2 days: since I've seen Todd

8 days: until LA
5 weeks 4 days (approx): until Brad's home
7 weeks 2 days (approx): until Todd's back
7 weeks 3 days: until I graduate
4 months 1 week 1 day: left in Ithaca

10 months 1 week 2 days: since I've seen Todd

1 month 22 days (approx): until Brad's home
2 months 1 week (approx): until Todd's back
2 months 1 week 1 day: until I graduate
4 months 22 days: left in Ithaca

Damn....

Todd called today and asked me to pray for him. He said he was scared and hearing his voice, his uncertainty, I was scared too. So, in typical me fashion I told him that he shouldn't be scared because he was coming back. I'll be damned if we have been worrying, scared, uncertain, crazy out of our minds for almost a year and then lose him. No ( Read more... )

I don't get it, for the first time since high school I have this overwhelming sadness howevering over me. I keep fucking up (I nearly got fired yesterday) and can't seem to be happy. I'm beyond frustrated and truely upset. I keep going over in my head all of the things that I did wrong and how I could have avoided that whole fiasco. It was ( Read more... )

You know, it's interesting: every year I go through the same introspection, thinking about what's changed in my life and how much I've grown. Or something like that. This year just seems different, or maybe that's what I say every year. I see myself falling back into old familiar patterns, maybe not the best patterns, but patterns none the ( Read more... )

SueEllen4: So kentucky's still awful?
Macmaniack1: As death and taxes
Macmaniack1:we almost got hit by a tornado

bradatithaca: Did you like the episode tonight ( Read more... )

Todd, as I continue to harass him about quitting smoking: "You know what, screw this, fuck trying to quit smoking....I've just got to get you to START smoking."