red handed

i think iv done an entry about all the cool chicks in my life. but instead i will mention only that i am drunk and high with my father and our colleague dan mack in a make shift edit suite in a hotel room in natik for an overblown industrial video monster. this is both the highest and lowest point in my life.

i cant breath. my room/edit facility flooded, and in spite of all efforts, mold is growing in my lungs. i have a permanent asthma attack now. im in a fashion show in 2 hours and i can only use 1/4 of my lung capacity. i miss my friends and i miss stability. i dont miss much, yet im never around.

just my luck. one of my best friends wants to kill me right now because he thinks i hooked up with his sister. this is totally the kind of thing that would happen to me. i cant talk to girls im interested in, let alone hook up with any chick, not to mention his sister. but in like a minutes time im supposed to have deflowered the girl. i dunno, and ( Read more... )

Sam Gove: yeah so, are those really autolux lyrics ( Read more... )

phones cannot contain us.

so she calls out of the blue. los vegas at first, but unsuccessfully. shes leaving soon, to la forever, and she wants to talk. coffee. my cars dead so i skate. we talk. she says shes a bitch and that shes sorry. i accept only the apology, and its all good. she still smokes turkish gold. normally the smell would make me dry-heave, but not with her. ( Read more... )

apparently she never wanted me in the first place ( Read more... )

MyVoid

what a way to find out that you have been forgotten.

my friend Ewa (eva) died on may 17th, of a self induced heroin overdose/suffocation. i feel i diden't appreciate her enough. i always just figured that she would always be around somewhere, and that we would always be friends. at the very least, i thought that our lives would slowly drift apart. i would be able to look back one day long from now, ( Read more... )