this is the reason why
i never stopped.

even though i've always been knocking on the sound-proof wall.

woke up to the reality you sleepwalked into.
and u feel.
screwed.

sometimes u think about all u've done and u wonder
is it not obvious enough
is it all taken for granted as time passes
since when is that expected of u.

there must be a limit to the number of times u can get disappointed and hurt
for it to be the last time.
there must be a quota to how much u can take
for u to be able to let it go and never look back.
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there must be a limit to how lost you can feel.
there must be a limit to how much you can worry.
there must be a limit to how much you can miss someone.
there must be a limit to how many times you can tell yourself to forget.
to how many people failing to connect with you.
to how many times you are at a loss for words.
to how many things there are that ( Read more... )

she needs some time to decipher the words uttered and the signs given.
all that is written outside her door is 'do not disturb'.
but for now it all just seems transitory.
happiness or tragedy may as well be transitory.

on this rainy christmas eve..as i lose sleep over what i can't put my finger to..i start to realize that sometimes it's really not a matter of how hard you try.
sometimes how hard you try does not matter because what matters is if it's meant to be.
despite everything that you did you find yourself being flung to the ends of the boat
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can't keep running from the truth.
how that few words from you mattered.
how they were all that mattered.
how i kept staring at what we had.
the gravity of your reaction jolted me.

it's always the wrong people who tugs the strings at your heart.

turned out that all these believing did her hell a lot of good.
except to get punched and stamped and kicked and broken
all these while insisting to believe and hope.
faith and hope construct and destruct.
but when did she realize all the good that believing brought her
when she ended up getting not only her bones broken but also her spirit crushed.
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i finally found the soundtrack that i've been searching for since august and also caught a few of the movies i've been wanting to watch since forever. anyways, jason will be coming back on monday. which is yeah tomorrow. it's pretty weird how everytime he comes back, i will be leaving the country and will not be back till he's gone kinda thing. was ( Read more... )