the resemblance is so uncanny.
for a few moments in a great many instances
i thought u were him.
it seemed as though it was him i was talking to.
despite the great difference in background and physical features.
it seemed like the way it all started last year.
it seemed like the way it was going last year.
save for the stickiness.

but i guess the ( Read more... )

attention is a potent medication.
people feed on it..need it..and obsess with it.
it makes you feel like the mot important and happiest person in the world.
the lack of it just breeds more obsession and pushes your self worth off the steepest cliff.

it is misleading;
it makes you think you're attracted to one
when it's really about the attention.
it is ( Read more... )

when you believed in all your heart that this is real and trust is a given
you realize how frail faith really is.
but when you begin to get this nagging feeling inside of you
of all this great secrecy and identity
you realize how blinded you were by your desire to believe.
you wanted to believe that your desire of strong friendship is reciprocated.
you ( Read more... )

This time
I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing
I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holdin' my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one ( Read more... )

slipping into an abyss.
yet again.
you wish you would learn to look before you take a step
and not plunge into a hole when you know there's no way of getting out.

we see only what we want to.
we jump only because we want to.
is it taking a leap of faith
or is it really greed.
rationality is a matter of perspective.
you adhere to it
when it coincides ( Read more... )

haven't really had much time this week.
not gonna have much time for the rest of the week and the next.
but the best part is i gotta come up with the project stuff by this sat
and that of my AIS project by i don't know when.
i'm gonna go to school for 2 tutorials without even doing any of either of them.
oh wells.

should i start counting down to the day ( Read more... )

when does hankering after what you do not have become wrong.
when you know you cannot have it?
when you know it doesn't matter how much you try to get it?
when you know that ultimately
history repeats itself?

as much as i can't bear to
maybe that is the reason why i need to get away.
because i need to know for once
that it is actually possible for that not ( Read more... )

sometimes fear is so capsulated inside of you that every step you take
every move you make
everyone can see and feel it.
but sometimes fear is buried so deep inside of you
that only you yourself feel it.
that you may be appearing to be the reverse of how you actually feel.
and eventually perhaps even you yourself can no longer recognize
what is it that ( Read more... )

ok so the recess week is over.
and i have 3 mid terms coming up.
1 of which is gonna be later.
so sick of studying already.

anyway it's jiamein's birthday today.
gonna meet her for lunch and hopefully the surprise for her works out.
and nhh hasn't emailed me.
omg. i'm totally panicking.
but the sep person told me to wait tll 20th oct.
.........

sometimes perhaps the only way of getting certain happiness
is to not let anyone know it and to keep it to yourself.
that way
it will always be protected by this fog of the unknown.
there will be no way of destroying it
it can never be taken away from you
even though deep down inside you know
that it will never be.

but what happens
when this becomes a way ( Read more... )