ok. so i have less than 2 weeks to go before my exams start.
and the fact is that i'm in the middle of nowhere for my revisions.
which means i am technically absolutely dead for my finals.
and i'm supposed to be pulling up my cap this sem.
good job.
can i please be granted intelligence for the remaining 21 days till the end of my papers.
arghh ( Read more... )

it's been a long time coming.
lost count of the number of things you saw coming and should have tried to avoid
but didn't because of this teeny hope you hang on to inside your heart.
that for once your judgement wasn't the better one.
yet, time and time again, you were disappointed.
does disappointment hurt
maybe.
does hope hurt
maybe.
does hope necessarily ( Read more... )

funny how the thing you want the most
is the thing that will never change
but yet is also the thing that you will never get.

and how what is closer to you
is always changing and cannot be counted on to still be there
the next time you turn around.

i guess certain things become a habit.
i guess certain people just rub off on you.
and i guess we always yearn ( Read more... )

a sense of how things and situations are so ephemeral.
so temporary.
so tenuous.
that in the blink of an eye.
in a matter of weeks or even days
it will all slip away from me
just like it did.
just like it always did.

am i supposed to be happy while it lasts
am i supposed to be indifferent.

the clouds shrouding my view and throwing lightning my way have finally dispersed.
the path out seems to be present now.
it is no longer a scene of confusion and a tug-of-war between should and shouldn't.
the fleeting notion of disorientation and high inertia seemed to have hit me hard.
it wasn't gonna be possible.
it wasn't going anywhere.
it never was.
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miss those times we shared
when we didn't look at the differences
but the similarities.
but now that there are hardly anymore similarities left
where can we fix our spotlight on
now that everywhere's a reflection of our differences
where can we bear to focus our sights on.

what used to be happy times
times to look forward to
just drives the wedge deeper ( Read more... )

everything seems out of focus the past few days. i can't focus. i can't concentrate. my mind isn't where it needs to be. i don't know where it is. maybe i know. i just don't want to. i can't do a single thing. i can't sleep. i can't really think. but yet i keep thinking. whirling. twirling. this seems horribly familiar.

twelfth night is a play that i've been both amused and intrigued by.
perhaps because of the allusion to it in shakespeare in love.
and perhaps because the song is my favourite of all time.
it's been twelve days since.
is there any significance at all.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me ( Read more... )

Now you can wait your whole life wondering
When it's gonna come or where it's been.
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to,
Don't feel as good as it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Things you used to do, went right out the door

Oeh no more, will you be the one
That's what you ( Read more... )

cos i don't think you really have any direction in life
as though u're just drifting along
and praying and hoping that things will turn out for the better.

i admit that this is true.
i don't know what i want.
i try to seek it out but i still don't know.
perhaps i've always been constrained by what i think i can have
and what i think i can never have.
they ( Read more... )