Do ever feel like there is just no point, i feel like i dont belong here, i have friends here that i love, but if they only knew what i think i or how easy it is for me to cry, im sick of pretending im ok, how can i tell myself that the future holds better things to come, i need to leave here, i feel like i have to go find myself, im lost and i ( Read more... )

I had a great Valentines day, prolly the best ever you would think it would be terrible cuz i didnt have anyone to spend it with and i have been so caught up in being alone the last few months, but it was great, i went to class, went and bought roses for my posse, hung out with my friends, my big sis bought me a cake(god knows i love cake), jess ( Read more... )

Do ever get that feeling that things are finally looking up for you, im not counting my chickens before they hatch but the days seem to be getting better for me...and i know thats a good thing since nothing all that special has happened...Im hoping this keeps going...Oh and i love being a SigEP ( Read more... )

You know after talking with friends, you notice how very it easy to complain about what you have. We can always find the negatives its so easy, Everyone has things they dont like, things they want to change or what they really wish for, my wish was always to fall in love find hapiness that way, and it will happen just as everything else in life ( Read more... )

the story of my life over the last few years its just a big coaster but i tend to head downhill more then i do up and so its hard not to stop, cant stop till i hit bottom, so ( Read more... )

So i been wondering am I a good person? ive done alot stupid things in my life, ive made alot mistakes, i use to think i was a good person, but what is a good person? like now, this past summer i started smoking cigs ,i got a second MIP. these are things i use to look down upon. I never liked ppl who smoked, i had nothing agaist them but still i ( Read more... )

So many thoughts running through my head right now, i want to belong i wanna feel like im a part of something worth wild. But what is that and where is that. Im thinking about droping the fraternity, im thinking about droping school, im failing, im falling apart right now and its my fault and i know this, but its like i dont care, i use to say i ( Read more... )

+So i came across somesite, i guess its somebodies journal type thing and it had alot things to say that hit pesonally, and they way ive been feeling ( Read more... )

This is very long entry, dont read it if you dont want to but its definately important, becuase im opening my eyes to who i really am ( Read more... )

I need to stop i need to stop being this way, i need to stop right now i need to fucken stop it, i cant take it anymore, all along ive felt alone, i am alone, i believe im alone so i feel alone, nobody can help me, and i cant stand that i think that way, i find positive in others, but i can never find it in myself, as jess said, i need to find that ( Read more... )