I want something great. Today was an ok day, i went to work kinda depressed as always but i felt ok. When i got off work my mom called said i had to pick up my brother from work. The car didnt start. So now were down to less vehicles, and no money to fix them. It seems like my parents try, and yet they dont get out of being broke. I am just ( Read more... )

I give up, you know i want to keep myself happy but its kinda hard when u spend every moment of your day alone. So last night i get a call from my friend he wants to go to the movies im like ok ill meet you there and i guess a couple of our other friends were coming to, so i was like cool. So i get there, no one is there yet, i figure ill wait, ( Read more... )

I cant sleep, i dunno what it is anymore, i have to stay up untill 6 in the morning just so that i pass out, im not happy, and it kills me, i dunno what it is anymore. I feel alone, i mean there will always be my family and the few friends that i do have who care bout me but i really do feel alone. I wish i had a best friend, someone who really ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning ( Read more... )

im bored so im writing in here, even tho ive written in here everyday lately. Ive noticed the things ive written, and i dont like it. I know how im feeling and i know its not good and i cant let myself do it anymore. Ive thought bout some pretty stupid things the last 2 months. So i havnt had a good summer does that make it ok for me to think ( Read more... )

I wonder what death feels like, is it painful, does it hurt, do u forget all the ones you loved, do u feel better, is it a good thing, death...ive never thought bout it so much, i just dont feel like living anymore, i need some serious help, but there really is no one there that cares, im not close to anyone, i have no one anymore, for the first ( Read more... )

To laugh, to smile, to be happy, to love, thats what i dream about, but dreams they never come true...

What does it feel like to be happy...i have forgotten, im so alone, but im trying to make the best of it. Everyday i go to bed wishing, hoping that, that i could just go away, die, leave, whatever, that maybe i would just be that lucky, it wouldnt matter, ive never brought anything worth wild to anyone in this world. Ive never made impact on ( Read more... )

Well im at home right now being bored, this is what my summer has consisted of. the next month is gonna be so hard and so boring. I have no one anymore. My friends are moving down to St. Louis, they have been all ive hung out with the last 2 months, so im stuck with no one. I feel so alone all the time...im such a loser, i really dont know what ( Read more... )

Im tired of being alone, it shouldnt really matter i should be fine by myself but im not, i wanna be able to hold someone tell them i love them, i want to have someone i can wake up with and watch the sunrise , or go to the beach and watch the sunset, hold there hand and know that they love me, know that they are not ashamed of who i am, Maybe im ( Read more... )