I have good days and bad days but it seems as tho the bad days are fucking killing me. Im so tired and so unhappy, it sucks, and everytime i try to be happy, i end up even more down. Ive given up my faith, God doesnt exist anymore, not to me, if he did he would somehow help me not feel this way. He would bring some kind of comfort to me. Even ( Read more... )

Its funny how u can be so depressed and then all of a sudden not be. I dont know whats goin on but i feel like eveyrthing is gonna be ok for me. I have no real reason to be depressed right? I have a loving family, i have friends, I havnt had a hard life. I have had it good. I dont know what I feel anymore but im tired of being depressed, I ( Read more... )

I dont know what it is anymore but i cant seem to laugh, i cant seem to smile, i cant seem to be happy, ill laugh, ill smile, i will be happy, but its all a show, a big act, I dont know whats goin on with me anymore. Im being fake, Everything i do i feel like im only pretending, summer is suppose to be fun, your suppose to hang out with friends, ( Read more... )

Well todays the first day of summer, what a great summer its gonna be, i have no one to hang out with, i hang out with chris alot but in month hell be gone, its seems like i have no friends, im really tired, i have no energy, i dont know what im doing any more, where im goin, i dont have plans for my life, where did all my plans go...summer is ( Read more... )

Its funny how time has its little way of fucking with our head. 1 month ago today I was happy, i may not have been able to see you but i knew i loved you and i missed you. TOday, im sadder then ever, im in so much pain its hard to express anymore. Today you're happy, adn im not time all time does is flip things around. Today is Junes 16th a day ( Read more... )

You may never have cheated but thats what it feels like to me. You liked someone else before u gave me up. Which is one of the reasons why gave me up. Even though u never mentioned that. Selfishness, huh, this isnt selfishness, selfishnes is when u do everything for urself. Youve already found someone else. Youve kissed him and im sure it ( Read more... )

Im done, im thrwoing in the towel today is the end, im trying so hard but i cant go on, not like this, i cant focus anymore, cant foucus at work and when im home its even worse. I need to start a new life, a life where i let go, dont look to love someone, dont find it, move from person to person. People say they love ppl but u know loves ( Read more... )

I finally realized, I held you back, from whatever it was u needed to be I held you back, im sorry for that I always wanted the best for you, and I still do, you can finally be happy, you deserve to be happy, im so sorry for everything....

I cant sleep...im falling apart fast, i just want to let go and its not that easy for me...why is it for you? I try to stop myself from crying and I cant. I dont need to be like this. I am sorry that i couldnt make you happy. Just know that you mad me happy and and I love you. All i know is that im not Ok and i dont know when i will be or if i ( Read more... )

I dont appreciate people arguing back and forth on my journal. It doesnt help the situation. Im still lost and have nothing to live for. Amber I dont know who the person saying those things bout you is, and im sorry that they are, but could u please not post on my journal unless its something good cuz i dont want to read shit bout you and some ( Read more... )