So Yeah I am going back to America in three weeks, and ( Read more... )

Ich wollte nur ein bisschen sagen... und wenn du ein gut freundin bist dann du findst raus was ich sage.... so ja... alles ist nicht so klar mit mir aber, kann gar nichts für, weißt du? aber ich hoffe das alles geht bald besser ( Read more... )

Ok so i realized yesterday that I have been in love with this guy for the past 4 months or so,a dn i didn´t even realize it..... or I didn´t want to. Cause see we were going out for a while, and everything was going really good, and then we broke up and started slowly not talking to eachother anymore. It was kinda cause everyone was talkign about ( Read more... )

So yeah it has been a crazy long time since I wrote. Things here are going good, like I am really getting into the people, and I only speak german here and think in German, and dream in german... It is kinda crazy to live life in a different language. But it is cool to see how people on the other side of the world work and think and live ( Read more... )

So this whole being in germany thing is giving me a bit of thinging time and growing up and all that really nice stuff. And I am really starting to think about something.... Thanksgiving is tomorrow... and as most of you that know me really well know that thanksgiving was a bad day for me when my dad was dying(how ever it is spelled, sorry losing ( Read more... )

How can one day be so up and down... It really just doesn´t make any sense at all.... I fucking hate days like this...

I gave blood fo rthe first time today. Germaay rocks... cause germany takes my blood and America doesn´t. Cause your normal body temp is 98.6... adn when it is more then two degrees above or beloe they won´t take it... And my normal is 96.5. But in germany they go by "C"degrees not "F"degrees... SO I was good to donate.... Sweet! I ROCK!!!!! But ( Read more... )

I just thought that I would write to tell everyone who writes posts to me I am sorry. I always try to write back but I am not sure if it works or not, and if it is posted or whatever. I really don´t know. For some reason every computer I go on here in Germany sends me to LiveJournal.de Which is the german website so I can´t always understand all ( Read more... )

Every since I was a little kid if I was at a friends house and didn´t feel like I was at home then I couldn´t sleep. And since I am here I can´t sleep like at all. Which is totally odd cause I really feel iek I am at home. So I should be able to sleep right? Well here is what happened. Everyone was in the house and I jsut couldn´t sleep for two and ( Read more... )

I am feeling a bit better. I got to talk to some family and friends and people. And I found a friend here that I didn´t realize meant so much to me (or me to him) until I told him I might not be able to stay... and he is now going to every length to make sure that I can stay. I still kinda fear that th ecaring of one or two friends will be enough. ( Read more... )