When things like this happen, I can't help by feel invisible and that sucks because I should never feel that way in this situation. But I do. I have for a while, and not a lot of people know that about me. Nobody realizes that I just let it slide because it's easier that way than letting my anger and frustration get the best of me and have me lash ( Read more... )

Acceptance.

Yea, I've accepted everything. Things happen for a reason and yes, I knew that before but sometimes it's hard to see why things happen. I know now that you can't always plan for what life is going to throw at you. There's always going to be a twist. It's like one of those movies where you think you have it all figure out that all of a ( Read more... )

She rolled over. She felt this arm wrap around her ever so gently. She let out this sigh of relief and he pulled her closer to him. He kissed her bare shoulder and she felt this overwhelming sensation come over her. She knew that he had her - - but she couldn't let him know that. She tried to play it off that she wanted to go to sleep. His hand ( Read more... )

"you do a little something for me, then I'll do a little something for you... then we'll do a little something together."

*angel face*

I’m getting there. I’ve got to the point of not acceptance of a situation but rather I can at least discuss it with people without having a breakdown. I know partially what’s going to happen to me - whether I like it or not - and I’m learning to deal with it. I have options.

I’m not going to work on being happy. As depressing as that sounds, I ( Read more... )

Okay. I'll be completely honest. What I am going to say is something that a girl shouldn't want from a guy because it makes no sense. But it makes sense to me. You might not understand it, but this makes things a lot easier. I want you to hate me.

“I have people watching my back that will make sure I come home to you”

“For you, I will do my best to stay safe”

“I like dealing with it, I like you”

“Fuck you”

“Later”

“Now that’s the Steph I know”

“I forgot you were a great kisser”

“I think you shouldn’t worry about it, cause he does like you, a lot”

“ ‘If he were ( Read more... )

“Maybe I made myself too open when I explained to you I understood that I loved you unconditionally, not that I was in love with you anymore, but I guess I thought maybe if you knew how vulnerable this situation is you'd be a little more careful. I guess not. What do I have to do to make you see that I am giving it my all just to be your friend ( Read more... )

1. I want to thank you. Why? Because you have been there for me the past month when I needed you the most and you were the one that wiped my tears when I broke down - twice and you were the one that told me that everything will be okay and that it will sort it all out with time. And you kept it a secret. I’m glad that we can be there for each other ( Read more... )

I have yet to reach the acceptance phase, which is why I’m having a hard time with this - with all of it.

But I didn’t really think about that today - which I guess is a good thing - I mean, you brought it up and with all the secrecy and everything I just didn’t feel like elaborating any conversation of it tonight. And I’m sorry, but I’m not ( Read more... )