alot has happened since I last wrote in my journal. My life is changing in more ways then one. My mom read my journal, and she ruined on of the best things in life for me. Im not going to let that get me and as a jumping off point for my new life i think im going to take up writing again. First thing that happened was not so good, my grandfather ( Read more... )

Sean get over yourself and stop being an asshole. I dont hate you and I never said I did. If you would stop pulling stupid ass shit like that maybe I wouldnt dislike you so damn much. You always think the worset of everything. Just like my father! This is the shit im talking about my dad does the same thing to my mom im sorry but you will be ( Read more... )

Well....It happened! I finally broke down and cried and cried and cried until I puked my guts out. I even cried infront of my mom for like 2 seconds. I spent 2 hours laying on the grass in my grandmas backyard, crying my eyes out. I am getting some of my drive back. Im still on the search for a spiritual path, but I think I have found one thats ( Read more... )

So now that now one reads my LJ I can pretty much say any damn thing I want. I have been really depressed this week (more than usually). My mother told me that I thought of myself as perfect, and that I can point the finger on other people and tell them what they are doing wrong in their life. So what! When I do that to my friend they take my ( Read more... )

Whoop whoop! I went shopping with my mom on Wen. and my mom got a hole in her pants right on the ass!! I couldnt stop laughing! So she got pissed but then later she laughed. Im kinda pissed, I have not been here for a couple days and Sid takes me off her list. I am having such bad mood swings. I am going to look into birth control pills again. I ( Read more... )

So I went to this hospital today. My grandpas in ICU. He got drugged up last night and he said some funny ass shit! My grandpa has never been the one to cuss, but he kept pulling the blankets off of him (and only being in a rode that was not a good idea) so my grandma covered him up and he said "DAMN!, you people never let me do anything I want to ( Read more... )

Romaines show is the best! If you have not heard it yet you are missing out. To show my support I called the show. I had practiced what I was going to say before I called, but then it was time and I totally fucked up and paused, but I got my message out there and I got through it. Romaine was cool about it and im sure if she wasnt the co-host I ( Read more... )

Why do people fear what they dont understand? Why should I be afraid to go outside wearing what make me feel like the true person I am. I guess thats why I like Halloween so much, its the one day I get to wear the clothes I want and no one looks at you funny. When you wear a cloak in 100 Deg. weather I guess why people would look at me strange * ( Read more... )

So I got mail from Jacob, he is doing okay. He said hes still trying to find himself but that hearing from me made him happy. He feared that I would still want him (which I do) because he "doesnt want a girlfriend at this time" or he already has another girlfriend which I think he does but hey thats what I get for letting him go and giving him my ( Read more... )

Still no word from Jacob. Ever since that damned E-mail I cant get him out of my head. Im going to call Rachelle today and see if we can go do something. I think im going to go see my dad today too, I actually am starting to like spending time with him or maybes its cause it gets me away from my mom, but he looks like he is trying and I think for ( Read more... )