I have actually, kinda talked to some one other then my parents and friends about how i feel, and not knowing why i feel this way. what he said.. almost made me cry.. it would have if it wasnt in class when i recieved his note. he told me that he knew only one person that could help me because i could not fix myself. God. he said that he also has ( Read more... )

things havent be feeling much better.. the only happiness i seem to have any more is with brian.. i dont understand anything.. i want to talk to an adult.. but every time i try to tell my mom.. she jsut gives me this speech on how i shoudl tell her when something is goin wrong. what am i supposed to say to her? there is nothin wrong. i am jsut liek ( Read more... )

i am soo confused... that feeling is back. last week wasnt too bad.. i was actually pretty happy all week... but ths week.. the emptiness has returned and i cant get it away. i was feeling better about everhting..cuz it all just seemed to go away.. but its all back and i jsut cant get it away. i hate this stupid feeling that i get. it makes me feel ( Read more... )

hey everyone!! i know i havent updated inforever!!! things have been goin really well actually.. kinda strange. things have really cleared up with me and my friend. we talked everything out and now we are good.. things have still been tipsy.. but hey thats how things go. they are alot better and i am gettin alot better with the whole being negative ( Read more... )

i havent updated in a while cuz i have been so busy with everything! things was goin pretty good until lately. brians been the best but hes killing me!! hes the best thing that has ever happened to me and he thinks hes terrible.. lol.. i love him so much.. i jsut wish he would think he was as great as he really is. i swear.. i dont know what would ( Read more... )

I FINALLY GOT TO SEE BRIAN TODAY!!! lol.. i missed him soo much when i was gone.. lol gosh i love him. OMG! thursday is goin to be 4 MONTHS!! aww.. i am soo happy!! he makes me soo happy!! *smiling* man i never smile.. except when i am with him.. yeah i know i am obsessed.. but ehh i am HAPPY.. yeah thats right ME HAPPY.. lol you dont usually hear ( Read more... )

hey everyone!! i came home last night!! wow i am soo happy to be back.. i was gettin a little home sick there.. OMG!! i missed brian soo much.. ehh it was terrible.. i got home and he was like i missed u soo much.. aww it was so cute! I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH.. i seriously do.. its amazing.. i never knew that i could have such strong feelings for one ( Read more... )

hey everyone.. i guess things have been gettin better. well i dont know. not really.. ehh i cant even explain this. i hate goin to school... there are jsut days when i just dont want to get up. like this morning!! ehh it took my 10 mins to get the energy to actually get out of my bed. i dont know whats wrong with me... well i do.. maybe.. i hope ( Read more... )

The pain that i am feeling right now is not able to be explained in words. Last night i went to travis maceks party.. adn everyones like OMG!! ARE U OK?! and i jsut said yeah.. i am tired. well yeha i was tired.. but to be honest.. im not ok. i have been holding back tears for liek the past week. everyones so worries about me.. but i dont want them ( Read more... )

guys i fianlly got the internet back!! i am so excited!! i have been goin threw freakin with draw of internet! OMG!! i am sry but i hate our track coach! i seriously do. he just aint fair. ok olivia, erica, cj, and lesley are all great runners. but he didnt even give anyone else a try. yeha i mean sometimes i can goof off but i am usually trying.. ( Read more... )