SERIOUSLY!!! I can't take this anymore. I want to just dissapear forever. I feel like I am missing! I feel like I am gone and I can't come back. I don't want to feel like this anymore.. Please someone help me! I don't want to feel like this.. I want to go back in time. I want to fix things. I want to find myself again bc I am gone. I am not the ( Read more... )

I hate this.. I miss her too much. I miss my best friend. I miss my ex-girlfriend. I miss us, I miss everything about us. Almost everything I see or hear reminds me of her, and I can't take this anymore. :o( Was this the right decisions? I don't think so. I did this b/c my girlfriend wanted it. Really she did, I did it to make her happy and to give ( Read more... )

Today is a sad day. Well just as sad as yesterday. Even though it was my decsion, I did it b/c my gf wanted it. She feels threatened by my best friend. And in a way I can't blame her, but I feel like I am lost. I have lost a big chunk of myself and my heart that I don't know what to do. This really sucks not being able to talk to my best friend. ( Read more... )

» YESTERDAY

I just can’t believe you’re gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side
When we have so much in store tell me what it is I’m reaching for
When we’re through building memories I’ll hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart

Chorus
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take ( Read more... )

well talk about signs. Im trying to figure myself out and here she is telling me that someone likes her. Well I guess that is my answer... She is moving on and im trying to figure out myself... My stomach is turning inside me and i want to scream!!! But i have no right to scream, cause she isn't mine.. She asked me if i was mad at her.... HOW CAN I ( Read more... )

You know signs are crazy. They can be funny signs, sad signs, here signs, there signs, any kind of signs that you want. They can mean so many things. So what about the signs that are not physical? The signs that you see when you need to be guided somewhere or to someone. I've asked for some help to guide me, some kind of sign that is suppose to ( Read more... )

 Things keep getting crazier. I don't get it. I don't understand what it is that I have done wrong. I have not done anything wrong except when I "borrowed" my parents vehicle with only a permit and without permission in the middle of the night. I was caught and punished. Not being able to get my license after I turned 16 SUCKED!!!!! But I have not ( Read more... )

I just feeling really blah tonight.. Just been thinking alot today.. Got into another fight with my GF. Oh goody another fight.  We talked about being on a break or breaking up since we have been fighting so much lately. Then she said my worse nightmare, she said that she thinks that if we break up then she doesn't think we could have a friendship ( Read more... )

Seriously!!!! What is wrong with me? I don't understand why I am like this? Why do I have so many mixed feelings and questions that are burning inside me!!!! What if I make or am making the wrong choice? What if I lose both? What if I break someones heart? No matter what I am breaking someones heart, even if it is my own. I don't know what I want, ( Read more... )

 So today is the day. Today is the day that I get to see my BF after the big fight and everything that went down. Today is the day that I hope that the Green Monster doesn't come out. Today is the day that maybe I'll be able to figure things out. Please PLease let me figure something out about my life. Why am I here? What is my purpose? What is it ( Read more... )