so this isn't going to work. i'm breaking up with this livejournal. i tried to before but never did it successfully ( Read more... )

i'm sick of spending these lonely nights training myself not to care

forever green, i know she's here, in california
i can see the tears

i see your wishes on the wall, and that's alright with me ( Read more... )

chris and i spent last night in jail for public intoxication. i also had a charge for "resisting arrest" even though i followed all the cops' orders. i guess i just gave them some attitude. fuck it. jail was freezing, as in three vents blowing cold air on one size of the cell. i hated it. the food was weird looking so i just ate the cornbread. some ( Read more... )

i'm the problem.
i'm the one who has to leave.
i'm out of control.
i'm a force to be reckoned with.
my life is a paradox.

here i am on day 7 without zoloft. it's stupid. i never thought some pills would matter so much to me. i don't think it's being without the pills that is driving me crazy, but more so, the side effects of not taking them. i'm acting just like i used to, and i seriously kind of hate myself.

i am so much better than this.

i can go with the flow, i can say it doesn't matter anymore

this really has nothing to do with anything. OR DOES IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it doesn't.

it is interesting to see how quickly things develop and change within a week's time.

every time i think things are finally okay with us, shit hits the fan. for every prayer that comes from my lips, the opposite happens.