I'm such a freaking idiot....I should have caught on to this sooner...Shea was NOT unhappy with me...she was unhappy with herself...and I was unhappy with myself...and it really showed...so now she's DOING something about it to make herself happy...call it LIVING...and she wants me to do the same...She REALLY DOES LOVE ME...she just wants us to ( Read more... )

Alright todays gone SHITTY...BUT I have decided that this is MY life...MINE...not my mom's, not my dad's, and not my friends...I know I asked for advice...and yall are trying to give me the advice yall think I need to hear...but starting right now I'm going to live my life the way I want to...yeah if I ask for advice...I still reserve the right to ( Read more... )

Yeah it figures no one would even read these...I see how all of my "friends" feel about me...no one even posts anything...gee go figure...:( I'll just live the rest of my days in solitude...and Alone...but its ok I guess...I'll live I suppose...but then again...no one would know...no one calls me...or anything...oh well

well I started my new job today at Macdonalds...its hell there...10 hours and I only get one break...Oh well its worth it if I can get Shea back...I don't care if no one likes my reason for this...but its the truth...:) I'm IN LOVE with HER...get over it...my feelings won't change I know I've tried...:) so I'm going to work as hard as I can to show ( Read more... )

hehe...I'm so happy right now...and this is why....I'm going to call shae some time and tell her that I need to talk to her about somethings...and I'm going to go get her and bring her to the levee, and sit down and talk to her about these things...such as I've been looking inside myself and found somethings that I don't like about me...and I'm ( Read more... )

Today I've decided...I'm going to pull my last effort to win shae back...I know that things might not turn out the way I want them to...But theres still a chance that it might...and I'm hoping and praying that things will turn out the way I want...and after this I'm giving up and moving on...but it worked for me once...and I'm hoping that it will ( Read more... )

I know most of yall probably don't care to hear this but I'm in love...I'm in love with Shanna Spears at this point...But I'm going to put myself through hell trying to get her back...She completes me in everyway possible...so for 3 months starting today I'm not going to call her, I'm going to wait for her to call me...but as these 3 months start ( Read more... )

well while thinking about some of the things I've done in my life I realized I'm not a low down, rotten, piece of shit...but I acted like one to Shae...and if you have a problem with this then don't talk to me...and Brandon if YOU have a problem with this then talk to me cause I have some things you might like to hear about it...Anyway, heres the ( Read more... )

well my life fucking sucks right now...shae just broke up with me again...although she says its not my fault, I severely doubt that...I mean who's fault could it be? she said she was unhappy...and I know why...because I'm a good for nothing bum...I live off my parents...I lived off her...I lived off her mom...I just wish there was some way to make ( Read more... )

you know school is really boring when you have NOTHING to do...so what better way to pass the time than to post on my LJ....Yes I know its a SHOCK to everyone that I would actually update MY journal....anyway so Brandon wants to say that me and him don't spend much time together on his journal...well I got to read it last night and said well then ( Read more... )