I thought I was ok, but apparently not ( Read more... )

I was born into this, so for me, the sudden freedom was shock. I knew, with the tenacious nature of a child, that there was something wrong with the world. Everyone was unhappy and scared, and I didn't like the census man, or the priest, who we had to see once a week in the church. I didn't like the church, for that matter-the large, dark ( Read more... )

No one's sure when exactly it started to happen, but it wasn't a sudden change. Of course it wasn't. We were the proverbial frog in the pot. Stick us into the boiling pot and we'd hop out again, aghast; let us sit in cold water while it slowly heated and we would sit there, simmering contentedly. A failing economy, the increased threats of ( Read more... )

"It wasn't always thus", they whisper, at the beginnings of the stories. They try, with old dusty adjectives quickly falling into colloquialism, to paint us pictures of how it was. Imagine a man long unused to speaking suddenly required to explain, to a child born blind, the glory of a sunset: this is how their tender memories are conveyed. It ( Read more... )

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Unrequited love is still love, right?

I don't think this is a good sign ( Read more... )

So. I've been struggling with some things, lately; mostly ultra-personal but the core of it has been an issue that has constantly come back into focus for me. I think a lot of it has to do with the way that I was raised, but I keep thinking that there's more to this life than what I've got. By all practical counts I'm doing well; I have a stable ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm doing; with my life, right now, just in general. I've got a date tonight, which I'm looking forward to, I guess; but not really, because it's with the wrong person. I keep wondering if I have a tendancy to fall for guys who are out of my league as self perservation, or because like Holly says, I fall for guys who are looking ( Read more... )