just thought i'd stop by and say hello for whoever reads this ( Read more... )

tomorrow, i start over.
i'm nervous, excited, and scared shitless.

but i will come back new.
and all fucking better.

byebye livejournal. it's been fun.

i am hideously, enormously, wholly, encompassingly, profoundly sad ( Read more... )

right now, i am very profoundly sad.
my heart hurts. so much.
...i wish i hadn't done all of these stupid things.
god, how i wish.

i don't fucking want to hear about christmas ( Read more... )

 i am genuinely petrified.

i cannot even write about this or think about this logically.

but i am very, very afraid that i am going to die before i get to florida.
my blood is barely circulating.
...i can't even move much.

i'm so scared.
i just want to curl up in my bed and cry my fucking eyes out.

 hahahaha.
i am in trouble.
in more ways than one, mind you.

this week & next week up until thursday should be mildly interesting.
maybe i'm a bitch, but maybe it's about time i should be.
i plan on making a huge fucking mess.
and then peacing out.

everything can reconcile itself for once.
while i reconcile myself.

..as if things weren't complicated enough already, i complicated them some more.
and i don't expect them to uncomplicate themselves before i leave. 
haha, oh life.

i've come to terms that i'm not very good with good-byes. departures. leaving. which is why i often never say anything at all. i just go. this is different. this is a long while. this is, ( Read more... )

wednesday, i have a phone interview ( Read more... )

well ( Read more... )