when will be the last time i say "im through crying over boys"?

bad night/headache morning & to top if off i cant even have a drink. weed doesnt even seem appetizing right now.
lost hope

my uncle (favorite uncle) had brain surgery. he has brain & lung cancer, my cousin (his daughter) just had her son, which they were just told has down syndrome. my moms boyfriend is having surgery today & starts dialasis thursday (i dont think he's even 50 yet) & i just left hospital. i almost lost my right kidney. what the hell? hah ( Read more... )

i hate not being able to say the right thing. you know, there's some people that just have comforting words & years of wisdom & kind advice to give. ..i dont have that skill. i just wasnt born with it. or i havent learned it. im really a compassionate person those things just dont come out of my mouth. what does is "im sorry" "you need a hug". what ( Read more... )

im kind of forced to put up shit that i really dont want to. i do it, though, because of the situation. normally i wouldnt. normally i would say fuck it. but i guess its different when you have such a care for someone. i dont think ive ever felt this way before about anybody ( Read more... )

dealbreaker ( Read more... )

i really dont do many things to try to "prove a point" or be stubborn. people seem to take me being logical as doing so pretty often though. i was wearing someone's jacket & i was smoking a cigarette in it & they say "youll have to wash that" (they dont like smoke smell)..so i take it off. the person automatically assumed i was being an asshole. i ( Read more... )

watching Eulogy ( Read more... )

i had an awesome morning/breakfast. ah shit its casual friday, sweet.

my state of mind has been completely whack today. its basically flip-flopped happy/pissed the majority of the time ive been awake. (& TC & i napped for most of the day.) i need to be way more emotionally stable in order to handle this situation with the delicacy it deserves ( Read more... )

scenario; im sitting at the bar, quite obviously upset, talking to my good friend. you walk up, (after you'd been following me around all night) coked-up, trying to ask me whats wrong.. now keep in mind the whole night ive been trying to avoid conversations with you. really trying to not even face your direction. id rather sit alone staring at a ( Read more... )