i cut off all my really damaged hair today.
this means i cut off all my hair. all of it. i hate it, a lot.
its my fault, but i think i look stupid, and i hate it. a lot.

today i was sitting on my bed, typing away at my computer and i sneezed the biggest sneeze i've ever had. my tongue thrust out of my mouth, and i sprayed spit all over the place. it was disgusting, my cat flew from the bed and then, i burst into laughter. and i laughed for a good couple minutes, a wild, hard laughter that i havent done in a while.

i havent been getting much sleep lately, i need a regulated schedule, and a new job.

i plan on spending this entire weekend drunk. jealous?

i received my very first speeding ticket tonight.
67 in a 40.
$253.
it was a state trooper, going in the other direction, she spun around just to give poor little innocent me a ticket.
what can i say?

i'm blond again.

i know.

i've been smoking about a pack a week.

i'm watching america's funniest home videos, and one of the finalists is from brunswick maine!
just sharing.

and they won first place!

i need a therapist.
theres a lot of of things i want to say, angry things that i need to tell people, but wont.
other things that i need support with, but wont get.
i'm dealing with a lot of issues
but mostly i need to feel better.

sometimes i like having everything to myself.