I had a dream last night. It was so real, I woke up crying. I thought that some terrorist had actually shot Jessica. It was weird because I woke up when I was asking about Chris, he was there when the terrorists had come, and I had escaped without him leaving him there after he said he loved me. I was in the English hallway of my school, and I was ( Read more... )

My time with Chris today was different than it's ever been. I was nervous for the first time in months to be with him. I had butterflies in my stomach. Some how I knew this time would be different. He made love to me in my bed at my dads apartment, but this time (I can't really explain it like I want to) he finished. It's not like he couldn't ( Read more... )

I don't understand. What did I do wrong? What made you suddenly hate me like this? I wish I never got involved, because every time I do it's always the same thing. I'm tired of the same old fucken thing. Love is a funni thing... isn't it.
Never again. I swear never again.

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Frozen in grace
In time
somewhere in time
she says
goodbye
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I finally got my halloween costume together. heh I'm such a dork. I got a black trench cape with a hood that ties around the waist, with a black corset that goes under it. I'm wearing my boots and a skirt under it but you won't really be able to see the skirt because of the trench cape. I still have to get makeup cause I'm completely out of ( Read more... )

Well I guess today had it's up and downs. The school day sucked. Royally. Like I would have rather been dead than there. I swear that school just depresses me. But than as I'm waiting by the window for absolutely nothing guess who pops up. It was JIMMY!!!! I didn't think it was him at first cause he cut his hair. I hadn't seen him since the last ( Read more... )

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Well it's been an okay week so far. Yesterday was awesome. Hung out with Flaherty's and watched 13 ghosts, really lame movie by the way. They drew lots of cock on my bulletin board. My mom laugbhed her ass off when she saw it. I'm gonna take a picture of it and post it here eventuaolly. It's hilarious. Today was better than normally ( Read more... )

Well I'm in Jersey now. We left at around 4:45am, and got here only at like 8:30. Long drive cause we had to pick my dads friend Jeff up in West Islip. Than he dropped me and my sister off at our Aunts house so he could drive up to Maryland for a few days. I'm not sure when were coming back. Hopefully by Tuesday or Wed. It's okay here. We just got ( Read more... )

I swear I'm never going back there again. That fucken school. I swear everybody there has it out for me. Even my fucken teachers don't like me. I thought my English teacher liked me but than she sent a refferal down to Verchassis ofice saying im always late to class. Well dun when the fucken school gives me Theory right before hand which is on the ( Read more... )