I tried... I tried letting him know how sorry I am but he won't take an apology. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad this time. Maybe it was for the best... One day I'll figure this out.

Same ol shyt... i swear every day it's the same ol'. Once again went to work from 7am to 2pm, except this time i was a fucken idiot and accidently cut my finger open. I was cutting some guys bagel and the knife slipped and cut my finger and half of my finger nail. I actually had to run in the back and soak it in water for about twenty minutes cause ( Read more... )

I think... I want to see you. I dunno. Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm wrong... who the hell knows. I need to see you.

well I had work again today. That was fun it was only from 2-6, but tomorrow I'm working from 7am till 12pm or 1pm I'm not sure yet. I haven't decided. Depends on how busy it's gonna be tomorrow. Than I got work again on Sunday from 9am till 2pm. One again fun fun. But hay I'm getting paid a little over 100 a week so it's all good. I wanna get more ( Read more... )

Why do I always feel so fucken left out? Is it just me being to paranoid, and fucken retarted with everything? I don't even care everybody can do whatever the fuck they want, I don't wanna be a part of anything anymore...
Just leave me be...

Well all the fun for this year is over... Nothing exciting really happening anytime soon. Oh wait yeah i almost forgot my real birthday is soon haha I'm such a loser. I forgot my own birthday. But other than that nothing at all. Just going back to the same old boring stressful lifestyle. At least this weekend was pretty cool. I slept over Jens ( Read more... )

wow tonight was amazing. I got some crazy gifts, Kyle bought me a fricken pipe for my b-day cause she didnt know i don't smoke pot. Ha, well my dad was like this: went to get my hair done at 12, dropped off dj cd at 1:30, than we went to Macys to get my makeup done around 2. Got out at 2:30 than went to pick up the balloons and set them up got ( Read more... )

I'm writting you this letter for a series of reasons. One of those reasons is so I can finally move on with my life, and the other is to say goodbye. When I called you earlier today I was planning on telling you everything that I'm about to say, but now I don't have the gutts to tell you in words. You know me, I'm never really good at these kind of ( Read more... )

Ehh.. such a stressful week. I'm in such a shyt fucken mood i wanna tear somebodies fucken head off right about now. Between him trying to talk to me again and work and summer school and all these other fucken appointments I got every fucken day... it's just frusterating. I'd rather shoot myself right about now. And on top of everything i got my ( Read more... )