omg am i becoming a mess.
i need to stop. stop everything right now.
and be a better person.

hmmm.. =/

I sure
am one
lost soul.
I hope
one day
i can
just be
a happy
person.
its so
so so
hard ♥

I have soo much homework.
I wish I wasnt so freaken lazy.

1st- biology//reed
2nd- economy//chomet
3rd- crafts design(switching out though)
4th- graphics//deeb
5th- english//maisner
6th- health//berling
7th- alegabra//pruneau

CLASSES ANYONE?

im so so so jealous. i thought this is what i wanted. but now im just lonely. my birthday is in a 26 hours. get me presents! =]

lets be frank. im as pissed off as fuck. && i dont care for anyone right now. im tired. im stress. im lonely. my family is falling apart. i havent seen my friends in days. my birthday is in a week and i have nothing to look forward to. these holidays are just a way to sell cards. and fuck you if you read this and dont comment.

So lately. Ill take anything. Ive become desperate. But now i realize//that im not desperate im just being me. i dont have to be desparate I just need to have fun. && Ill ignore the fact that i have a crush on three people. Cuz thats so unlike me. seriously.

Ill just let it all go.

I need to like them all just go, go, go.

&& im ready but damn ( Read more... )

today was sucha blurr. i realized i have two drug addictions. one to adderal and the other to bendryll. today i had biology. it made me seriously uncomfortable. i wish i had mr wright again. i wonder if he remembers me. its only 6:52 and it feels like midnight. i dont feel good. i feel just awful. about a month ago i couldnt have been better. but ( Read more... )

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I hate this.
I always have.
I was okay for a while.
I thought you might like to now.
I guess I'm back now.
I don't like returning to the old me.
    The depressed me
    The unhappy me
    The not satisfied me
    The confused me
    THE LONELY Me
I'm back.

I hate trying my hardest and nobody notices
I hate trying to be friends
I hate trying to be ( Read more... )

so im really sad right now. && it sucks i wonder if there actually a way of avoiding your negative self. i doubt it. we didnt make it to our one month. and i didnt miss him until today. we were best friends and now weve lost it all. its too bad you know. too bad. my mother doesnt like me && we are going to lose our house. isnt that just better than ( Read more... )