official chillihead.

im over it
im over them
im over that.

i cant stand being at home
i cant wait to get out
i just wanna be on my own
without her help
because nothing is mine with her.

i want to just get away. aaahh.
cant wait to MOVE OUT!!

its like ive completely lost myself.
its like i dont know who i am anymore.
i dont know where i wanna be.
its like im trying to pull through,
but its so hard.

the one place i felt like i really belonged...
was taken away because i fucked up.
and ill never have that back.

i miss it.
i miss being there.
i miss being me there.
i miss them.

i came ( Read more... )

its like a drug.
its like i cant stray away.
it keeps pulling me in.
i dont want quit.
but i do.
i miss it.
i miss being there.
i miss being the person i was there.

its getting to be that time
im not ready for it yet

i wonder if ive got it all out of my system yet
will i be ready to change?

will i be ok?
is it really going to make it all better?

im so lost....

I have WAY too much fun here!

( my life at sfa... )

growing up is hard ( Read more... )

i feel so lost.
i feel like the longer i stay,
the more i become one.
i cant not do it.
i cant not do it to the extreme.
i feel like im slowly coming down.
down, down, down.
dissapointment rubbed in my face.
the thing is....its not ok.

i never thought it would be like this.
its hard.
its so hard.
i thought i could prove...
id be different.
better.
the worst part is...
is letting myself down.
but mostly them.

so i was just going through my dirty clothes ( Read more... )