is it bad when you find yourself wondering daily how this will turn out in the end?

sometimes i wonder if i really do prefer tragedy. if i ever really can be happy. or satisfied ( Read more... )

 things in my brain that have to come out before it explodes ( Read more... )

 i m really annoyed with pretty much everyone in my life right now. and its reminding me why i moved in the first place. 
and hopefully when i leave next time i wont forget why. seriously.

nervous breakdown

i used to be so articulate and passionate and hopeful, and while im still hopeful..im not even sure of the other two. i feel i am, but i feel its always surface deep. theres never as much depth as i know i am capable of. i have to get a job, and im not even sure i want to, i want to come home truly and be 17 again, and be in college with the rest ( Read more... )

my life is making geographic circles, and this time around i dont mind.
we'll see where we'll end up.
even i dont know the ending to the story this time.

im tired of being a woman in a little girls body.

im not twelve years old, im GROWN UP FOR GODS SAKE.

i should not be this size. even extra smalls are too big, and i had to buy a double zero pair of pants today.  i want to kill myself.

im trying to prove myself, and be ambitious, and mature, and accomplish things, but i look like a goddamn pipsqueak. 
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when you havent changed
but you know youre not the same

cause I can hardly see
what’s in front of me these days 
and those days, too.

I’ve got to take what I’m making
and turn it into something
I’ve got to break what I’m making
and turn it into nothing

God, where have you been?