It's been a long time since I've seen you ( Read more... )

I am renewed, with faith, with hope, with joy, with love, I was reading over some of the things you have said to me over the past couple of months, I don't know why I ever doubted you, you've always been my everything and I know that now, I know now that all these things I've been feeling and thinking for so long are right, I've been through some ( Read more... )

I fuck it all up, story of my life is, something wonderful happens and I piss it away because I get hurt, I piss away everything I want, all over all of their hearts, telling them I care and then treating them like shit, I don't treat them like they deserve to be treated, it's really no wonder no one can stay with me, I'm a horrible fucking person ( Read more... )

so this is supposed to be a chroonicle of my thoughts eh? Well I would imagine my thoughts are pretty evident from my earlier entry, I've ben stuck here, lingering in this place between life and death for way too long now, it seems like I've been fighting all this time for no reason, and now I finally have the guts together to do what it is I've ( Read more... )

Well, none of you really care I'm sure, if you do you're dilluted and probably dillusional, tonight I made a decision that I've made a thousand times over, well, actualy I made the decision three weeks ago, I've just been putting it off, so I wanted to say to you all that I have greatly enjoyed talking with everyone on LJ, and you all really made ( Read more... )

You ever open your eyes to something you wished you could have been blind to, well I have, it seems sometimes like the things I want the most are always the things I can never have, like those things I cherish and dream about every night are only haunting memories of something I can never see again, never touch or hold or kiss or feel, I can never ( Read more... )

So the story rages on when a little boy with high ambitions and high hopes tries his best to speak with this angel he can call his own, such a perfect little dream in his eyes, with no tears to be shed for glory or pain, and so this boy he cries aloud to hear your little broken voice again, something so pure and utterly un-real that can touch him ( Read more... )

So today was my first day at Pizza hut, it was nice, much easier work and alot cozier than Nino's that's for damn sure, and those of you who study this Journal will know what nino's is, so if you're really curious, read, -insert evil grin here- at any rate that isn't the point, the point is that someone I have been wanting to talk to for so long ( Read more... )

I love you with everything I have and you barely know I exist, I think of you everyday and you barely think of me at all, sometimes I wonder if everything I feel is simply some bullshit crush, sometimes I wonder if I even can move on and learn not to be so madly in love with you, and sometimes I wonder if that's really what I want, I just read ( Read more... )

I'm talking to you right now and it's beautiful, it's always beautiful, you just said I wouldn't see you before school, which hurt a little but it's really not that much of a surprise, I don't think things are mutual here, I think this ground is a bit un-trodden, however I think the un-furtunate thing is that it may never be explored, it may come ( Read more... )