WOW.
I hate you.

I am so depressed. I feel like ( Read more... )

I am an empty shell now.
I only harbor fear.
Maybe, if I'm lucky, things will change.

I, I don't know

I am the fucking queen of epic scenes.
I felt like I was going to throw up.
I felt like my innards were going to just leak out of me in a fiery explosion.

I seriously just want to disappear.

I had a thought tonight.

"If you could be drunk for the rest of your life, would you?"
"Well yes, but I wouldn't because...."

I had no answer. I had no offending point.

"Everything is going to be just awful, when we're around.."

I'm drunk every night you talk to me.

Murder =Wwhite out.
Cancer = Birth blouse.
Mirror = Perfect glass spouse.

Oil = sex paint.
Shower = water saint.

Death decodes the howls from our hands...

Skull = Noise nest.
TV = Fuck test.
Mirror = Siamese gun kiss.

Sugar = Birth bait.
Murder = Loves fate.

Death distills the camouflage from our dance. Death inverts the red from romance ( Read more... )

I have decided. There are two parts of me and they battle against each other constantly and horribly. I am, on one end, superficial, needy, emotional, sensitive, jealous, and mostly, needy. I have undergone many social ups and downs but I only remember the ups. So when I go down, I feel cheated, I feel I have been under cutted, under paid. This is ( Read more... )

I feel very depressed and alone and I'm not very sure why. I feel like it's completely self induced and I keep expecting more from people and then getting let down. No one has to do anything. I need to stop. I feel very low. I can't even describe it ( Read more... )

Back to California.
: )