OH MY GOODNESS OH MY GOODNESS OH MY GOODNESS ( Read more... )

I am so frustrated. Sometimes I just want to shake people. First I did a very nice thing for C and she didn't even say thank you. Then I get this email from my dad telling me about his new smart phone. Do these people really not understand how annoying this shit is? First, C is completely oblivious and that's nothing new. Why I keep being nice to ( Read more... )

Kaya killed herself. She finally did it. While I was hanging out with her she tried twice over three years. The winning choice: asphyxiation on helium. I think she was getting high and OD'd since it's relatively easy to obtain helium for whip-its. She was so reckless and self destructive. She was a liar and a user. She was brilliant and charismatic ( Read more... )

New Favorite Song Lyric:

"I grew up in a tin
breadbox
with safety pins
and padlocks

sins in
beds hot
whoever said
that I'd forget
you know they were lying"

This is from Lilac Dreams. It's a song by Judith Avers who grew up in Liberal. This quote is just so damn accurate for that place.

More ho hum. Everyone is poor right now. I hope that everyone is poor for the same reason as me. I had lots of fun this summer. I'm going to spend all winter paying for it. I didn't work enough to cover my costs. Well, I did, but just barely. I have so much debt and it's embarrassing. I'm right at the limit for where I should be with my income. I ( Read more... )

Ho hum. I'm excited to have my boy come home today. I've missed him. He told me that the strangers that have never met me at the trade show think I'm cool. Honestly I wonder how many of them only think that because I build guitars. This job of mine is a powerful label. Sometimes I lie to people when they ask me what I do just so I don't have to ( Read more... )

This trip was terrible but it could have been much worse. Details ( Read more... )

I'm so very nervous about this trip to MN coming up in a week. I haven't seen my dad in seven years. I have no idea what to expect out of this other than a headache. He's hitting me up for money to pay for food now after I have already spent almost $800 on the flights and the hotel. I don't even expect him to take us to the airport on Sunday ( Read more... )

Possible ways to get her to stop fucking during business hours ( Read more... )

Doug emailed me about an ambush. My first thought was oh god it's real. He shot at people because they were shooting at him and then there was blood because they killed this guy. Oh god this is real for him. I feel a little sick. I wish he hadn't sent that to me. Lately we've been emailing about cars. He wants to buy a car in Eugene and then have ( Read more... )