17 days left. Hum, well I guess I have a choice to make. But I suppose I have been making it all along in the back of my head for months. I just refused to allow myself to accept it. I don’t regret doing what I did, but I regret awaking the primitive being inside of me. I wish I hadn’t done that. I guess maybe that means I do regret it. I hope that ( Read more... )

I feel horrible. I feel like I am going to vomit. Great! Oh my only 18 days of school left, that is crazy. When I came in my freshman year I thought I would be here forever. I never thought it would actually end. And now dram is over. Wow that kills. It’s all over. I know that there will be other times, and other people to love, but still it’s hard ( Read more... )

Wow I seem to be over run with things to do. Play, speech, portfolio, dance, piano, church, I feel like I could go on forever. Oh well I am sure there are tons of people who have it much worse then I. Dang yesterday at the play there were not very many people there. I was kind of bummed. We actually did a very good job, all things considered. ( Read more... )

Wow the play is coming up here real soon. We only have two days left. And my daddy is gone again. Wow I am such a daddy's girl. Man that's sad. Ok enough of the meaningless chit chat. I am having one of the worst days of my life. Yea it really sucks. I think I will have to put it on the top 10 worst days list. Oh well, how would we know the good ( Read more... )

Yes, life has started. I have an interview for a job today, in about half an hour. Wow. I guess that is just another step in life that we all must make. Well I guess I am happy about it. Actually I really don't know what I feel. That seems to be the case with everything anymore. I never know what anything means anymore. I don't even get the common ( Read more... )

I apologize for my last post. It was completely unnecessary, and I had no right what so ever to do something like that. I was upset, and really very hurt. However that in no way gives me the right at all to post things like that. There is no excuse for my actions, and no justification. Just because my feelings were hurt, that does not give me the ( Read more... )

People often say that I am a man hater. And I would have to say that they are gravely mistaken. I am in no way a man hater, just a boy hater. Men are fine they don't bother me in the least.In fact I like them a great deal. However on the other hand I detest boys. Boys just don't impress me. They are all selfish asses, that care more about ( Read more... )

Wow, I really love music. I just seem to identify with it very well. It just makes sense to me. So much passion, and emotion comes out of it, and into it. Nothing in life is for certain, but death is for sure. These are the days of our lives, embrace them, and don’t waste them. We only go around one time. Wow, that was physiological. So lately I ( Read more... )

For the first time in weeks I am truly happy! I feel like me again. I am really tired, but yet I feel so alive! UM... I love that feeling. I can look at the furture, and see happy times. I am not scared anymore. There's hope now. Oh I am so happy. I feel like I just might burst. I Love You

I am really tired. I have been awake ever since four this morning. That kind of sucked. Oh well. So 40 days of school left. My, my, that’s crazy. Cool, and scary all at the same time. I love you all so much. Sometimes I have such love for you all that I think my heart might burst. True, good friends are hard to come by, and I am truly blessed to ( Read more... )