So I am in class right now and I should be doing something, I'm just not sure what. That seems to happen to me a lot these days. I am always thinking about the same thing, and I can't quite get my mind to focus on what I should be doing. But I like where my thoughts go. All my life my timing always seems to be off, or maybe it's just right. I don't ( Read more... )

I'm crying......... oh my word I hate crying. I reduced to some small week creature. To much going on, and the I hear this song.(A good but sad memory is involved)And I'm reduced to tears. Oh my. Man, loving someone is not easy. I am also a wreak because I am leaving everything I know. Oh I miss not having a care in the world. Not really thinking ( Read more... )

Really I don't think there is much to say. Oh I got a letter from Estearn! Looks like soon they will be my new home! I really think it will be very fun. At least I will be hella' far away from high school, and the childish problem that come with it. However there are stupid people no matter where you go. Oh well I'm sure it will be great. I think I ( Read more... )

I hope everyone had a good New Year. I sure ended the old one with a bang! My hands are freezing cold. I was just thinking about kids. Man I love kids, the rule they are so truthful. and stright with you. Even so they are a lot of work. I mean think, you are responsible for the way a person turns out?! Deap. And just think child birth!!!!!!!! ( Read more... )

Wow I must say in all my life I have never spent as much time on the computer as I have in the last few days. What is happing to me!? I confess to have run out of useless information to talk about. All in all though I have to say I am very sad that I am hear, and he is there. And he has no idea I even have second thoughts about him. Oh well be that ( Read more... )

My piano often seems to be my greatest friend. It has gotten me through so many hard times. I don't know how I would have survived without it. When I weep, my piano weeps with me. When I rejoice, so does my piano. However more, and more often me piano seems to weep. I guess that makes sense. I really started to "play" when my brother died, as a way ( Read more... )

Wow, it must be the time of year, Trevor is getting married. When he toled me I was blown away. He is the last person I would have thought would get married. It's going to be strange having married friends. I just got through writing all of my thank-you cards, so my poor hand is cramped. But that's ok! Anyway, my Dad took of to California, and my ( Read more... )

I wonder if it is truly possible to love a person, and at the same time have them love you back? In my life I always seem to be at odds with the person. Really sucks in the long run. Anyway, Travis came home for Christmas. He got leave so that was cool to see him. However he was only home for three days. It never seems long enough. And each time it ( Read more... )

Well all in all life puts strange rode blocks in your path. How is it that all in one day you can mess up a life time of work? What to do? Really I don't know. In a normal situation I would just reach out and punch the person. However this situation involves so many parties, I would not know who to hit first.