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Yume tte ii
Muri deshou?
I always have that kind of dream
Have an affair.
That's rll bad.
Isn't that means. .
I wanna do that?
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Today i had a dream about Dean. .
I think that is bad dream.
But somehow i'm so happy.
I even thought,
I wanna dream it again.
And it's okay even it's just a dream.
But isn't it means. . I'm desperate.
*sigh
Bcoz separated is hurt thing
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Ne. .
Since a long time ago. .
U know, u shouldn't be treated like that.
That is why,
U always cut off the one who hurt u.
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I know the reasons. .
Maybe i'm the only one who know it.
Because no matter what they do to you.
U will forgive them again and again.
U will simply believe them again, that they will change stop doing that.
But that is just ur fantasy.
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Weird idea about hair
03.03.2016
i have weird idea
last year, before i went there to meet him in march 2015.
February 2015, i cut my hair in order to go on journey.
more than a year, i didn't cut my hair.
I used to think that our hair created by memory. .
lil by lil and it's become longer day by day.
if. . .
that's true.
i wanna cut my hair right away now
hmm. .
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25.02.2016
If it can be come true,
I will be really happy. .
If. . that surgeon will help us to be together.
i will be really happy
I can't help my self to not cling into that hope.
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I simply wanna cry and can't stop thinking
"If" "If" "If" "If"
Doushireba ii no ka na?
Sugoku ureshii
Demo kuyashi to kanashii
I would like to do something too
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Lately i got really ( Read more... ) -
Hmm
Is ur life being better without me, ミネ。 。
I don't wanna be stubborn for contacted u all the time.
But in same time, i can't stop thinking about u.
And in the end,
I keep thinking about it.
Is ur life being better without me?
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I knew it, but cried over it
I know, it will be easier to release him rite now.
But when i read, what i wrote a long time ago.
About i stop using my brain just to be with hom.
I cried and unstopable.
Baka mitai,
Naze darou ka?
The tears come out and when i thought,
I was so sad, i rll can't stop it.
But when i thought about it,
Idk, why did i feel so sad. .
Naze darou. .
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What a weird days. . (29.01.2015)
Ystrdy my phone chiaki-san fixed and i lost a lot of data.
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Today i broke up.
And he say it 1st, I'm kinda relieved. Bcoz i'm the one who always say to broke up with me.
But even like that, i miss him rite now.
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Then i realized fb disable my fb acc.
I couldn't use it.
I feel like, i'm being forced to start from zero point.
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*sigh
There is the day when i thought, being alone is the greatest. .
Why?
Bcoz being with some1 is more lonely than being alone.
If that is the case,
I lost the reason, why should i be with u?
What are u and what am i?
Sappari wakaranai
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I end up hurting some1 again.
Zettai ni iya desu.
Why this is happen?
Why am i lack of tolerance. .
Tatoeba, i don't care,
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Yurusanai, watashi
Dou shireba ii?
I feel like, i wanna dig a hole and live there.
I was so ashamed of my self.
Why did i make that kind of mistake?
Nasakenai. .
Jibun no koto ga kiraii. .
Datte zenbu wa, watashi no sei desu.
I was so mad toward my self.
Is not like, i can't forgive u.
But i can't forgive my self.
Datte, watashitachi wa, onaji deshou?
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Ohisasiburi my journal
Genki?
Lately, i broke up with some1, in order to be with some else. .
Since he nvr take me seriously.
I shouldn't care to the one who doesn't care.
Then, i'm with some1 else now. .
He always say what i need and what i wanna hear the most.
That is why, i want him so badly. Lol
For the 1st time, i let my self fall.
I learn to say what i feel.
I was so happy,
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