I used to ramble and whine and whatnot here, on and on, with regularity; the jumble of thoughts whirling around in my mind was always clearer, written down ( Read more... )

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You begin to seek out hunger in a way that isn't even about food, about calories or weight or your feelings about the feel of your body. Just hunger, the point where it is a physical thing, pain in your belly, an aching demand. When you were a real person this was a bad thing, annoying, distracting you from the things you actually had in your life ( Read more... )

My computer's screen died so i have been doing everything i used to do on my computer on my phone, or trying. But writing anything at length on my phone is too annoying, and it's funny because it rather feels like i have been silenced, without the ability to write properly ( Read more... )

So much of the time my life, this pointless and so so pathetic little existence, just feels like... I am trapped, and i am too pathetic and weak and lacking in willpower or whatever, to do anything to get out of it. Trapped and boxed in and there is no way out of this but to stop being alive ( Read more... )

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I generally have other unhealthy and self-destructive coping mechanisms these days, but every so often when I am feeling really terrible, when things get too overwhelming and unbearable and I just NEED to do this or that, to function ( Read more... )

Another year. Still alive. Still seriously wanting not to be, but so it goes ( Read more... )

The attacks in Paris are a tragedy, but honestly I've been avoiding any and all discussions of the it to the best of my ability because I hate having to listen to the talk that almost always, from at least one person, descends into islamophobic bullshit, and the opinions about the refugee crisis in europe, especially from many europeans (including ( Read more... )

I did this sketch a couple days ago based on a board game miniature. It came out a lot better than I expected, especially considering it was a pens sketch so no erasing...


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