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It gets worse.
Apparently, he told another longstanding DAN activist that he "would have sacked me months ago, but only kept me on because he felt sorry for me". Which means that all my fears of redundancy (see, eg here), which i spent so long managing to convince myself were just paranoia, were true.
I really do fail at existing. -
Not coping
I feel like i am living in a nightmare that i can't wake up from. Everything has gone crazy and incomprehensible. Job has broken down completely, employer getting more and more unreasonable, paranoid, aggressive, authoritarian and impossible to work with until late last night he phoned me to supposedly sack me by text message (possibly to pre-empt ( Read more... ) -
Swift
a footless black scythe
wheels, screams freedom to the sky
vanguard of summer -
Dissonance and restlessness
This weather should be making me feel really good. Instead, it's giving me wildly dissonant mood swings between the (real, but ultimately superficial) physical/sensory good feeling induced by the weather and huge heaps of frustration and isolation because i feel like i don't have anyone to share it with ( Read more... ) -
Trying to find old discussion about PA work.
It was between me, beccaviola, foibey and possibly, but not definitely, tartful_dodger (or one of his previous identities), and it was about PA work and what it would look like in a less capitalist, more autonomous society. Want to use it for a proper blog post. For some reason cannot find it on the journals of any of the 3 people above, despite having gone back to earlier than ( Read more... ) -
Free to good home: 1 sex drive, hardly used.
I've written and then scrapped several kiloword+ rants about this topic, and got more frustrated with my inability to write coherently and accurately-representatively-of-my-thoughts each time*, so i'm just going to say:
This is me.
This is one thing i am considering possibly doing about it ( Read more... ) -
Being Human
Is fucking good.
I wholeheartedly recommend it to all autists, crips, transpeoples and freaks of any other description.
That is all, for tonight. -
Pain, doctors and disbelief
Woke up at about 4am last night with an incredible feeling of profound "wrongness". Took me a couple of minutes to realise that it was in fact physical pain, and once i realised that it was absolute agony ( Read more... ) -
for she who will never know
i want to fall backwards with you into infinite black dub oceans and chant down every downpressor with footfalls like the agony and ecstasy of the creation and destruction of universes ( Read more... ) -
You couldn't make it up
LOL WTF???
"Swans fight it out in cathedral test"If i didn't know that the Daily Telegraph was a real (and generally quite conservative/right-wing) paper, i would have thought that swan story was an entirely made up, slightly-subtler-than-the-Onion parody of British Tory racism ( Read more... )