THURSDAY: i woke up at 4 am with contractions. i timed them and they were irregular so i tried to go back to sleep. i had work at 7 and i could of really used those couple hours extra. i got up at 6:20 not exactly fully rested. i went into work still havin pains. everyone could tell that i wasnt myself. even customers were askin me what was wrong. ( Read more... )

i thought today was gonna be such a bad day since yesterday had me in a bad mood. my parents didnt help either. but kelley made seans day by stoppin by and sean made my day by lovin me so much to put me and my wishes above his wants. thanx babes i love you too.  well to be honest i am only writin right now cuz im waiting for my food. i am so hungry ( Read more... )

I have been on bed rest for about 2 weeks now. Out of those 2 weeks i have actually spent 4 on bed rest. the past 3 days i have spent being bored out of my mind. I have literally sat in bed watchin all 3 seasons of family guy. should i be proud of that acheivement? today was the first fun day i have hed doin nothing. I woke up in a great mood. i ( Read more... )

i wish i wasnt so depressed. i wish i felt like i mattered. i wish i didnt hate myself. i wish my life was different. but most of all i wish i wasnt here.

there has to be something wrong with me. i keep complaining about how sean wont even attempt any sexual contact unless he is drunk. and yet i still cant seem to get it to change. he says it cuz of the baby but really if it bothered him that much then he wouldnt have sex with me at all. how am i suppose to feel like a woman when i have do get my man ( Read more... )

I AM OFFICIALLY A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MORE SCHOOL FOR ME ( Read more... )

today was an interesting day. i went to franklin to visit my Ally. that was an adventure as usual. She gave me this beautiful ring that she got in Venise. Its a hand blown glass ring that has like 3 different purples in it. I love it. we went out to eat at the outback and had a sexy waiter. i still cant believe he wanted a 20$$ tip. thats fuckin ( Read more... )

Im at school right now bored outta my fuckin mind. Im suppose to just sit here and stare at a computer screen for 5 hrs. I even got here late today and i'm goin outta my mind. I had to do a business plan for school. It is due today and i finsihed yesterday. I worked so hard on it. It came out really good. Im determined to graduate with honors. It ( Read more... )

Alright i have been begging for a nite alone for weeks now and all i have wanted was a nite slone in my bed so i could get the sleep i really need. Tonite sean is sleeping at his moms house and im sleepin ay my house cuz i have school in the morning and wouldnt have a way to get there otherwise. YES i get what i wanted but as soon as i got home and ( Read more... )

today has been a simple relaxing day. what else could i have asked for this saturday. i woke up early but stayed in bed with sean til about 10 am. i was warm and wanted to cuddle him. When we both actually got out of bed i made sean make me breakfast. well it was more of a lunch. then we watched a movie and i did the dishes. later in the afternoon ( Read more... )