I'M HAVING A SON!!!!!!! im going to be a mother of a baby boy. his name is going to be James Michael Andrews. when i found out i was having a boy i was ecstatic. i probably would have been no matter what the sex was. sean on the other hand wasnt as thrilled. he really wanted to daddy's girl. the idea of a boy has grown on him within an hr. i bought ( Read more... )

i just wrote in my lj about 15 mins ago. i wrote in there that i was so scared of something being true that i wouldnt even say it. well i just found out that it is true. i was afraid that sean was no longer in love with me. he isnt. he might say he loves me but he isnt in love w/ me. im not exactly sure when he stopped being in love with me but i ( Read more... )

it doesnt matter anymore. life just doesnt matter. i have never been this depressed in my entire life. maybe its because my fiance doesnt understand me. maybe its cuz everyone thinks im a bitch. maybe its cuz i cant do anything right. at this point i dont know anymore. i dont know anything except that i hate who i am and my life. Sean makes me out ( Read more... )

well it had been so long since the last time i have wrote an entry. I just didnt have the time. my life the past year has been very busy. WEl since i dont know where i left off the last time i posted an entry ill just start with june. I quit EB games cuz my manager Brian sucked balls. Sean got out in june on the 16th. Our life has never been better ( Read more... )

hello everyone sorry i havent updated in a awhile. my life is so depressin i figured i save everyone the time. im still the same old me. i cut my hair and i lost like another 10 lbs. i have no tits n e more. they poke inward instead of outward. even tho im so little now im still not happy with my body. i kinda miss the weight. well heres a rundown ( Read more... )

This is freaky, interesting and scary all in one ( Read more... )

i found out today that my baby gets parole on May 30th. its a good thing cuz i can wait til may. november was gonna be a little tough on me. then i get my baby back forever. were gonna start our family and live happily ever after. i wish he would be here for our one yr anniversary which is may 10th but its my present n e ways. im glad he coming ( Read more... )

i love you sean andrews. you are my one true love an i will never leave you. We are going to get married have a great marriage and grow old together. we will die togeher. we are met to be and i thank god everyday that i found you. i found my one purpose in life. and that is you. i'll be waiting here til you come home to me and it is time to start ( Read more... )

well its past christmas but not yet new years so i figured i would update everyone one my life. I got tons of shit this christmas. I even got things from sean but i know that my mom and his mom bought them for me. but i like them n e ways. im going to Ally's for new years and on new years day i have my little cousins b-day party. I also get to see ( Read more... )

It's the 19th! Seans court date is in 2 days. i'll have my baby back on wed. thats the greatest x-mas present ever in the entire world. I hope he means everything that he said. about our future and our baby. that he's gonna get another job and that he's not going to drink n e more. our future looks fincially stable on my end. CEI is only gonna take ( Read more... )