kevingordham: just one last thing. you don't have to respond. you can contact me if you want to find out about Dawn, because I won't be contacting you again. I love you with all my heart, but I won't put up with that kind of crap. when you TRULY want to make amends and not just lip service, and I mean to EVERYONE, then we can continue. It will be ( Read more... )

Wow, I just opened this link out of habit. I really didnt have much to say. I had such a great night last night. This morning was okay, then it kind of sucked. After more coffee, now it is looking up. Tomorrow should kick butt as should saturday and sunday ( Read more... )

This is a Public Service Announcement for anyone who ever reads this journal:You know, it seems as though I went over this about a week ago, but I guess people don't pay attention to the entries that are not about them. If you have something to say to me, say it. My e-mail address is posted on a few past entries as well as in my userinfo. If, for ( Read more... )

I have been crying really hard off and on since around 6. I hurt so badly. I tried to call a counselor, but she never called me back. I hurt so bad. I am so lonely.

I am so lonely. Will someone please come over and play with me for a couple hours? It hurts...

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!

Why the fuck can't I make up my mind? Why do I have to be so insane??

In other news, Matt ditched me again. Why this time? Guess! Ding! Ding! Ding! Nika! Thaaaaaat's right! Tell this contestant what they've won.

So that leaves me alone. Again. I wish someone would come play with me. I am so lonely.

OKay, so I deleted this file I had with all the sweet shit he said on it. It seems as though all guys just give lipservice. Oh well. I know it's not worth fighting for anymore. Words are just words. 3 years and I haven't gotten much. I have been everything he has asked me to be, and it hasn't been good enough. I can't keep living my life around his ( Read more... )

This is awesome! I am warm, I get to go swimming whenever I want, I have no attachments! This is actually really nice. I am so calm, it's great ( Read more... )

You can't hurt when you don't care, right?

Okay, good mood gone. Thanks a lot.