My new years resolutions ( Read more... )

I hate this. I hate the fact that you're so stressed out with everything going on and there's nothing I can do to just make you smile or make you have a better day. Instead, all I seem to do is just make it worse. How do you make someone extremely happy when all they want to do is mope and not try to make things better ( Read more... )

recent news: Ben is moving back to San Antonio in 2.5 weeks! eeeekkk! I am thoroughly excited for him to be so much closer and for things to work out a lot better. This fighting we do is ridiculous. I just have to remember 2.5 weeks and then things will be better ( Read more... )

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so i'm a little sad... no zelda or link costumes will be made this year i don't think :( we are just too broke and would rather go on a date together then spend money on costumes we might only wear once. so i think saturday night he is taking me out so i can have a little study break. that is how my weekend will be spent in waco... studying, ( Read more... )

eeekkk! i'm excited.
ben and i are gonna make princess zelda and link costumes in one week!!! :)
HALLOWEEN I CAN'T WAIT!
i hope our costumes look badass!

in a few days it will be 7 months for you and i. never have i felt so completely alive and happy. we have our faults... we fight a lot.. but we love each other. we are actually able to work through the fights and work them out. that's what i love. sure i say you're an asshole and you say that i'm a bitch, but i feel that God has brought you back in ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if this is the you i'm going to be stuck with for forever. i'm not a big fan of this you. those 3 weeks that i had you sober, were the best weeks we've had in awhile. though things were happening for you, i loved that you dealt with it and dealt with it sober. don't get me wrong, i love you now and for forever. but, this side of ( Read more... )

i can't wait until one day when maybe, just maybe, i'll be able to be with you everyday. i won't have to be 200 miles from you, or go without seeing you for weeks, where you are just two feet away and i can hold you everyday ( Read more... )

how do you know when to stop? i sure as hell don't. i guess i push people and push people until they finally break. that's my problem. i don't help situations out, i only make them worse. no matter how hard i try to make him happy or show him i love him, it's always too much or not enough or i'm just pushing his buttons. it hurts me that i do this ( Read more... )