i feel so lonely.
and sad.
and still tired. i know it'll get easier as time wears on.
it's just hard to have the strength and energy to try.

i have nothing to be sad about.
it just didnt work out.
that's all.

writing is easy. all you have to do is sit down and open a vein ( Read more... )

you're sick. i hope you know that. i hope you know that it's not okay to put serious cards in front of someone and then burn them for frivolous reasons. it's one thing to not be entirely set on future plans, but it's quite another thing to promise the moon with all the stars when you have no intention of giving them to someone. and to then insult ( Read more... )

1. not sexually expressive enough ( Read more... )

its getting to the point where i am panicking. i feel like somehow i have screwed up my life path and will regret it for the rest of my days. i feel like ive been making wrong decision after wrong decision for myself and there really is no way to correct such errors ( Read more... )

sounds like he gets upset with me when he misses me and calls after a little bit and i havent changed as per his expectations. he expects me to make him feel more like a sexual object than i do. i understand that but ts been four years ( Read more... )

theres this guy that ive been in love with since high school and he never knew. we travel in semi-similar circles and i hear about him sometimes. sometimes i go over to him and his brother's house to say hi and every time my heart breaks because his girlfriend is there or mentioned. i miss him terribly and im not sure if i should be his friend or ( Read more... )

its like he decided to forgo the keys and just gave me the whole thing. just took it right out an plopped it on my plate. in my court. "do with it as you will; i dont need it anymore." you can't refuse when someone gives you something like this. so i'm forced to keep it and hold it in my eyes and learn the ins and outs of it; watch it contort and ( Read more... )

is something i wish i had right now to help me with my current situation. i wish i knew what i was doing or how i might really be feeling because as much as i want to analyze it i always come up with the same answers .. that im being too rational and that i should just feel like i think i do and get over it: to settle for what i have now. to stop ( Read more... )

let the " i told you so!"s commence ( Read more... )