du done done dooonnnne.
I really do wish it could have worked out for us. But it's not going to, clearly.
We both want big things, but they're totally different.
This hurts like fuck, but I've learned some things.
It's not that I'm not good enough for him.
We're not right for each other.
I want to love and be loved.

So not looking forward to not having ( Read more... )

Why the fuck can this not just be easy. Neither of us want this bullshit. We both want to and are willing to communicate, but apparently we're just terrible at it? Once again, we need to TALK. He's hopefully going to find time for it tomorrow night, though I'm not getting my hopes up.
I keep expecting him to throw in the towel, but he hasn't yet, ( Read more... )

I obviously knew this would come eventually. I didn't expect it yet though.
Matt is seeing someone. Named Jacquie. Who lives in the house he lives in. Who is 30 fucking years old. Who was in his stupid facebook picture with him right after we broke up. Who I said "Is that your new girlfriend?" or something about (she wasn't, at the time).
What the ( Read more... )

"Hey :) sorry i'm such a lazy ass... I was driving around a lot when you texted..then i got drunk and went to the bar and watched karaoke..It was fun, but mostly i thought about how you're so very sexy...I thought about that a lot...Couldn't stop actually..."
After 7 hours of not txting me, he can still send me one and make me feel really good.
I don ( Read more... )

New Years '09...I was with James, in London. A big group of us went out to dinner at a fancy Italian Restaurant. Justin mentioned me in the toast, saying he was glad to have me there and that I was totally awesome or whatever. Rick and I went out for smokes together. I loved them, I loved James. Things were pretty easy then, I think.
I had never ( Read more... )

I only have interest in one boy now. We like each other. We want something together. I never thought that would happen. I thought I would have a crush that wouldn't go anywhere. I thought there was no way it would go anywhere, but it has. I hope it keeps moving forward, and so does he. I've been worried and scared though, and voiced that to him. ( Read more... )

So many boys ( Read more... )

It's already been over 2 weeks now, since we broke up, since we've even seen each other ( Read more... )

...It's...over?
Out of basically no where. Things had been good for the past month. Not perfect, but maybe the best they had been since moving.
I had to work on Saturday night. We were home together for a while, before hand, and he left it until pretty late to tell me he was going out while I worked. He was going to Caitlin's and Bryan was going to ( Read more... )

I haven't in a while.
I've been working at the Casbah for almost a week now, I've had 3 shifts. It's not really very exciting...maybe it will get better once I'm more comfortable there but as of right now, I'm not sure the positives outweigh the negatives. I thought it would be my dream job but...I don't know. I like that I know what I'm doing at BJ ( Read more... )