sometimes i feel like i just want to disappear and never come back. lately, ive been feeling like im lost and unsure about everything. i think that everything happens for a reason but i feel like things arent worth pursuing if you know that things will never work out.  please help me.

i feel like im drowning. i have nightmares every night. i can't concentrate. i can't think. i need help ( Read more... )

    so summer's been weird. i haven't done anything too exciting and nothing's really changed. i still don't hang out with becky much. i guess she's just too busy to hang out. i haven't hung out with jon and sean and ryan and them for a long time..with the exception of last night, which was the first time i have in 2+ months ( Read more... )

im caught in a place of whats right and whats wrong. do i tell the truth and risk a friendship thats already shattering, or do i bite my tongue and wait it out? either way, someone will end up hurt and betrayed. either way, their lives will change. do i follow my insticts, which tell me to spill the truth or do i keep what i know inside? my ( Read more... )

last night, i had the weirdest dream and part of it had to do with drew. lately things have been not so good between me and him. hes been back for like 2 weeks now and i have yet to see him except for once and i saw him for maybe 20 minutes tops. its been over a month since ive last hung out with him and it really makes me upset because before he ( Read more... )

i wish that one day i could actually be certain about everything in life. that all the decisions i make are the right ones and that no matter what, i will be successful in life. but this is reality and nothing is like that. it's just life and i hate it. things could be so different if i wasnt so afraid. if i wasnt so confused. if i wasnt so unsure ( Read more... )

i'm tired of hearing "i don't want to hurt you" let's be honest, it'll probaby be me that'll end up hurting him. we're both afraid of taking the next step. we're both afraid of commitment but what better way to fight being afraid than confronting it? if things don't work out, well at least we tried and hey, we know now for the future, but i'm tired ( Read more... )

sometimes, do you ever feel confused about everything and that no matter how hard you try to straighten things out, it never comes out the way you want it? i know that nothing happens the way it's planned but it kinda sucks when you try so hard to make things work and then you realize that maybe, it just wasnt meant to be. i feel like i'm in a ( Read more... )

is it bad to want to end things when things havent even started?

     Today is the day of love and yet there is none. I walk down the halls watching people holding hands with their special someones, all content with their gifts and such and I just think of how much I really want that. I'm so alone, you have no idea. I try to make myself happy but i can't. Deep down I feel so empty inside and everyday it gets ( Read more... )