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[silencembraced]

Interesting how people keep comming up to me with concerned looks on their faces, asking whats wrong, and why i've changed hella all of a sudden

Comments

[b1whocaresalot]

Decide to not be content with it.
Do not accept anything that is not real or true, even if it feels best.
We are talking about a life of truth and meaning and purpose.
Don't throw away what is precious for temporary ease or pleasure.
There is much more life to be had.
I love you
no matter what you decide

[silencembraced]

To be honest there is no pleasure in it.
I do it for pretty much no reason.
Maybe its because i'm lazy now, and I don't feel like caring anymore.
I don't get it Dana.
I just don't see a point anymore...
I still love you though

[softwinterkiss]

Carlie, dont be ridiculous.
Why would you give up on everything youve ever lived for just because you feel lazy?
It doesnt make any sense, youre saying youre doing this for no reason.
But there has to be SOME reason.

I have succeded in doing everything that I didn't want to.

I have suceeded in doing everything that I believed against.

I'm an all time loser, just like I promised I never wanted to be.

And besides youre being sarcastic.
Honestly i dont tihnk you like being the way you are now.

[silencembraced]

Its not that I like it, or don't like it.
Its just how it is.
And youre right. Its not entirely because im lazy,
its also because I just don't care,
or because I know that 99.9% of this is out of my power,
and for once, for the first time;
i'm not going to fight it.

[softwinterkiss]

[protected post] Jul. 6th, 2005

* 10:36 PM

Why does everyone think I want to drink?!! that wasnt the question.. i'd never.
i'm edge, completely.. remember?
ugh!
<3 thankks for the comments tho.. although thats kinda not what i was asking for..
~CArlie

* Mood: crushed
* Music:silence embraced

[silencembraced]

yeah well.. that wasn't about drinking.. although i wish it was.

<3