this is pretty depressing.again, i build up the anticipation and i get let down by the one thing i thought made me happy. yes, here i am in Waterville with Roland, supposedly where i want to be all the time. i think i thought wrong when i decided to like this place. there's nothing to do and it not because its a small boring town, its because ( Read more... )

boys are scum. and if anyone affiliated with the person in the following conversation wants to give them a piece of mind, be my guest. he needs hear it from someone besides myself ( Read more... )

im having withdrawls. i wasn't made to be in this town. please help....if anyone who drives and reads this post feels like taking a trip-let me know. i swear i can make myself enjoyable company.


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i bought two cds last night. Children of Bodom and an acoustic Against Me ( Read more... )

i dont drink. or smoke. or find shrooms when i need them. i hate my family and presents and sitting around comsuming bread and butter out of sheer boredom. i dont enjoy backaches from sitting on the floor all day, or hugs from realtives or faking "happy" for an entire 24 hours, and knowing that the only reason they're all there is for the goods ( Read more... )

allright so spending time with Roland is officialy overrated. he's so fucking moody i swear to god he may very possibly be worse than me. ouch. last thing i want is a boyfriend who's anything like myself... i came home yesterday afternoon and Cheryl came over and spent the night. all we did the entire time was try to find guys and look at guys on ( Read more... )

i dont know what the fuck is going on.

im going to be in Waterville for the next few days, not really sure if im coming back tomorrow night or wednesday. either way, its better than being here.
peace out.

fucking is fun. so lets continue ( Read more... )

fuck boys from portland who are unbelievably gorgeous but play mind games from the day you meet them.
fuck christmas songs.
fuck the feeling that you have no friends and the days when they prove that theory right by not calling or giving a half a shit.
fuck being a millon miles away from what really matters...

fuck sadness.